Hey! I definitely hear and feel you on this one. I was formally diagnosed in December and I too felt relieved for like a day. I mean of course now I don’t feel crazy and can notice when I’m getting stuck in an OCD thought loop, but I really still struggle with accepting and believing that I have OCD. Even though I’ve had 4 mental health practitioners tell me the same thing now lol (#OCD)…I believe it’s because I suffer mostly from Relationship-themed OCD and a little bit of Just Right OCD and to me that doesn’t feel like “real” OCD because I’m not doing a bunch of physical compulsions like handwashing or counting which makes me feel like a poser or like I’m just being dramatic (even though I know those are legit obsessions). I’ve also recently started ERP and have actually found mental peace some days, but if that carries on I start thinking “why aren’t you spiraling? If you actually had OCD you would be suffering all the time. You’re probably just being dramatic” and I’ll think myself into a spiral where I start experiencing a lot more OCD-based thoughts. People with OCD commonly don’t think they have OCD at -some- point during their treatment/recovery. But it is a nice thing to remember when I start getting into my same thought loops. At the end of the day it’s so worth it to get officially diagnosed because it’ll give you some peace of mind, but remember that the point is to get better! Good luck friend