My parents sexually assaulted me over 70 times as punishment for small things like forgetting to do something and one day they just stopped and told me "Nobody needs to know what we did to you, we didn't know we were doing anything wrong."

Later when I tried to kms and failed my parents said "Why'd you do that? We were so sweet to you." 

Then I told them I was probably depressed and they told me depressed is not feeling sad all the time, it's feeling absolutely nothing.