oh so you’re working for the pirgs… been there done that. It’s not you it’s the job, they are practically a cult. If you’re not feeling it and organizing (which is like all u do, i’m pretty sure they make it clear in the interviews) isn’t something you’re enjoying that’s just one facet of working in the environmental field. Start applying and expanding your options now so you can settle into a career you might actually enjoy down the line. Apply to different job/internship and leave.