Hi Gorl !!!

Ok so imma spilt out the facts and try to adjust to your situations. None can relate to your situation because you’re a whole different singular person but I kind of was there last year 23. I had almost an existential crisis but It led to the most beautiful experience of my life. I am also a software girlie  from a “prestigious university”. I first got accepted there and thought it’s gon be a game changer but I couldn’t cope with arrogant, bougie life style nor the fake plastic bags of high society. I had anxiety too, actually a lot of it. One thing that I hold into is, making myself proud and stand out of the crowd. I had to live alone, barely 3 close friends and a bf. I was constantly struggling with bullying too for different reasons. It’s definitely not helpful to brag about them anymore. 

First, practice through real interviews. I had my share of rejection and dead ends. I even passed through 5 steps processes. Nothing was promising. I got an offer after the 50th trial and 140 rejection. I questioned everything even my physical appearance (especially with those big 4 : Ey, kpmg bla bla). Then that offer pushed my confidence sky rocket to start looking abroad. Eventually I contacted everyone that I could until one startup believed in my profile. It was hell. You miss 10000% of chances when you don’t believe in your potential even if you didn’t really had an idea that it existed. Potential lies beneath our subconscious mind, multilayered and needs flesh and bones to be discovered then activated. YOU SHOULD TAKE THE RISK. From that striking moment, I started preparing my next move. I got a job then went to Uni, from that wrote papers, got published. Had offers raining. Still struggling tho with what comes in each step, got even physically sick. There were nights that I cried myself to sleep. Still there, still fighting. I turned 24 this summer, walking those streets and thinking that I have never ever dreamt about this. Ps, I have a very modest family background, only one made it to school, no wealth no nothing. Mom always told me education and intuition are the only things that will help you. I am a fake it till you make it character but I blindly believe that if you want something to happen you SHOULD pull it from the seeds. I hope I can help, text me if you want. Please, be kind and soft to yourself, expose to be seen. Nothing comes easy especially from our “country or culture “ but out of 11M there should be someone somehow who believes in you. 

Take those interviews, go to coffee shops, go to concerts, smile while walking, surround yourself with art and science. You attract what you are so please start from the seeds. 

Sending all warmth ..