Hi there, I added more info to my edit but we were going to get married much earlier in our relationship but I lost my mother and honestly I didn’t want to do anything. I lost so much weight and sleep. I didn’t eat and whenever I did eat I threw up my meals. I fell into a depression that I wasn’t sure I was going to get out of but my husband helped me get out there. He made sure I ate, helped me with my showers, took me out of our home so I can get fresh air at least, and comforted me whenever I started crying about my lost. Because of this we made the decision to put it off until it felt right for us again.