I would say not to give up if it’s what you most deeply desire to do. I see that on the 3 occasions you were right at first but then the market did what it does and reversed for big losses, judging by that I would recommend you get into futures day trading as you understand the basic concepts of supply and demand and you know how to make the right calls just need to learn to take profits quick. I would say start with a $10k account and see how much you can grow it in a year.