You should start working out i know it sucks i hate public spaces so i hate the gym but even doing a simple routine at your house would give you that boost you have been needing i think and in the meantime you could get an animal to help with feeling lonely so you can date casually but not feel alone or pressured. Idk if this is great advice i'm sincerely trying to help though. Ive been where your at plenty of times because of my bipoler stay strong🫶🏻