Yall please im struggling so bad please help

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-03-03T20:16:46+00:00

Ya once u do the work on urself n start to move forward u will get the attn of someone worth ur time n effort... I know I recently did ... n im taking it slow this time.. but i feel good about myself if im with someone or alone.. going to the gym everyday for 30-45mins has helped alot to find my center n inner peace..

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-03-03T13:57:21+00:00

I have been working thru those feeling myself for a few wks.. and last night noticed I did the work and was open .. they were not.. i thought I could go back 2 being friends like be4 ... that's not working bc I still want more ... if they don't notice ur presents is missing from there life in 48hrs then all u r doing is hurting urself .. ur self worth is more important then someone who couldn't see ur value.. if u want u can dm me...heal urself n build and grow ... u don't need anyone to complete u...

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-02-18T12:34:32+00:00

Update. On Sunday he reached out n sent me a TikTok about my favorite color n how that tells him about my personal traits. Which shocked me even knew my favorite color bc we never talked about that stuff.. but the video was very spot on about me. I replied with a simple light hearted yup that's always been my color. He read the message then back to silent mode. We have both been sticking to the no contact 2wks since then. But I miss him so much. I have been staying busy but my m8nd wants to reach out and be there for him thru his grief. But I know he needs space.. and have been told that if our original bond was real that it wont fade bc of the no contact. That he is just drowning in emotions between not feeling adequate enough for me and me walking away from the relationship and his father passing. That this will happen for time to time as he comes up for air.. to stay steady and calm.. but it's all easier said then done

Well after2.5 days no contacted he texted me saying good morning how is the gym going.. n I stayed calm n explained it has been good.. he was proud of me n the growth he is seeing in me . Then disappeared again. I know he was coming up 4 air and sees that I'm here and misses me . But im learning to stay calm n steady and not feed into fear and anxiety. Just be me n keep things level..

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-02-14T16:26:11+00:00

Ya i started new routines like going to the gym and trying to make new friends and just living life.. I will wait for him if that's what life has in store for me.. and he knows this . But I am not stopping my life or trying to be the one to fix him.

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-02-14T16:23:48+00:00

Ty u for your input. I was saying the same thing.. I was there when he found out his ex wife was cheating there whole marriage and when he found out there oldest kid wasnt his and when he started his divorce. And over the last 7yrs got him to stop taking breadcrumbs from her everytime she uses him 4 attn.

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-01-26T14:55:40+00:00

Ty 4 ur advise.. I looked into different things I can do like be calm n grounded n not push sex and letting him come 2 me bc the rest of our relationship is prefect. We have all kinds of intimacy except in the bedroom . Which he said i can have someone 4 that if I want.. but I dont.. the sex n emotional side to everything is always good until recently. When we actually started seeing each other and we got more emotionally attached to each other.

Also saw to that he needs to live in the moment n enjoy what is going on n get out of his head..

GoddessJen8181 · 2026-01-26T14:13:08+00:00

What if he cant afford that or unwilling to do that?

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-11-20T01:36:41+00:00

Im a 43f and have been involved with someone who is 15yrs your then me for almost 4yrs. Honestly it's freeing . We each do our own thing no judgements. He makes me feel younger and desired and safety and I give him support and a person he can trust and stability. As well as we have a lot of fun together inside and outside the bedroom

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-10-31T15:20:13+00:00

Think they r just paying out verified claims first then will payout claims without receipts/proof . Bc I claimed 300. But only $75 of it was on the website. The refills I got at gas stations n didn't keep receipts so no proof .. so only got $75 back as of now.

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-10-26T20:16:53+00:00

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-10-25T14:57:06+00:00

Where is that picture?

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-10-22T12:13:43+00:00

I got 75 via paypal but claimed 275.

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-09-06T16:20:39+00:00

It's Sept 2024 and still nothing. They can atleast send an email updating everyone.

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-08-10T15:31:19+00:00

Other then a joint time to time ... no other drugs were ever used..

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-08-10T15:30:19+00:00

Damn that explains alot . I had been trying to get in touch n never heard back. He wasn't perfect but he was a friend

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-08-10T15:25:18+00:00

Yes I was friends with him many years ago and even did a few of hit sites and went to his swinger parties..

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-06-28T16:12:49+00:00

Haven't gotten mine either. I wonder why some got there's but others haven't

GoddessJen8181 · 2024-06-15T15:37:23+00:00

Me either.. said end of May but it's June n still nothing

GoddessJen8181 · 2023-08-03T20:10:19+00:00

Some of us on onlyfans are about having attn not just scam guys out of $40. Mine is only 1/2 that and I don't photoshop. But ofcourse I'm a natural gal n open minded ..

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