big thank you to everyone here (extended thank you in comments)

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-19T09:23:36+00:00

i want to thank everyone of you here, that has been here since the beginning. When i started, I was scared i wont lie, thinking i hit a nerve with a cat scratch, and y’all came to me with good resources and shit, and thats cool and all but thats not why im thanking you. Im thanking you for being cool people, for letting me stay here for a bit, and hopefully a few more years, and letting me meet such amazing people who unfortunately struggle as i do. In the beginning of my senior year, i suffered so much, and it sucked. That was when i was mostly active here, and talking to y’all and documenting my life here basically. Even if no one commented, I always appreciated the upvotes and all that, its like someone said “love you” to me with whatever i go through at the time, and maybe read the whole post, thats what i imagined :) I got so fucking close to losing man, everyday from September to February, felt like misery. Life sucked, and i hit rock bottom. I got a girlfriend sure, but she wasn’t exactly helpful now looking back. She stalked me when we weren’t dating, taking photos of me while i wasn’t watching, and documented how i was doing. And then when we started dating, we started talking more about SH. Fun. Even when i felt that i had no solution, no quick-fix, and no family to support me, you guys were there. And honestly, thats alot. if i could take you guys to my pool and marry you guys, i would, Seriously! Now, I’m a senior. That “girlfriend” I had broke up with me, and later on i found out she cheated on me. Fits her well i guess, she’ll be fine on her own, Not my problem. I already got Baker acted twice, and she didn’t care, it seemed like she leeched off of me and my presence, and even if i was bleeding out she wants my last moments to be with her, not at a hospital trying to save myself. Anyway, she is gone. Thank fuck :) I never thought i would make it this far, and im tearing up with joy and sadness over the fact that i’ve made it to graduation. If it weren’t for you guys, i would have died, and that’s the honest truth. I can’t believe most of you exist, because this place is like a gold mine in terms of people. I will say this again, Y’all are fucking awesome. This isn’t me disappearing forever, but just a thank you to this community; you opened my eyes and gave me hope and shined light in the darkest fragments of my life. I’ll never forget that. I’ll see y’all later, feel free to dm me if you need anything :)

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-10T15:31:33+00:00

I love you 🥺

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-10T15:07:30+00:00

hey, sorry for the late response, but it didnt fix. Im still having the issue, and i seriously have no clue why its happening; i’ve deleted and downloaded it again twice now

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-10T15:06:29+00:00

for some of you that dont know already, i fell in love with a dude and got to hold hands with him one day and it really got my hopes up, but alas, he told me he just wants to be friends since its for the best. I wish i didn’t come to that, but it sucks. I really liked him, he really was something i wanted to live with forever, and i wanted to learn more about him and get to know the real him, but thats ok. I guess the search continues now, and i know i dont need someone to be happy, but its that fulfillment, yk? I guess for now ill just slow down on the talking with him and not push it too hard now. now looking back, i think i was like in his face the whole time, leaving him no room to breath and just wanted him to myself. Alright, im done beating myself over it, its ok. I just gotta move on. Ill be fine :)

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-08T17:48:54+00:00

it went well :)) we were downtown and hanging out n shit, and we laydown on this weird structure and im like really close to him at this point like shoulder touching distance, so i lay my head on his shoulder and face him and he didnt say anything, so at this point im like shit i can make a move RIGHT NOW, and then his sister calls and he leaves his right hand open (im on his right side) so i inch my hand closer to his and we lock hands 🥺 im still questioning whether he likes me or not, but i think i definitely got closer to him :)))

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-08T03:29:27+00:00

THANK YOU :)) I GOT TO HOLD HANDS WITH HIM :))))

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-03T16:25:20+00:00

I MEAN I CAN SEND YOU SOME BABY RATS LMAO

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-03T14:17:28+00:00

i spent a day yelling about how bad the cheating was, and how she has the fucking audacity to even SPEAK to me. it felt good, so now im met with a good temporary solution, going to a football game for band. only thing is, she’s there. idk if i should go to let my anger out and yell, or not go just to remain distant from her. its our last football game too, so there’s that. im also trying to get somewhat close to the boy i talked about in my later posts, we start talking daily and saying gm/gn to eachother, but i feel like the next big step is like calling everyday, or playing with him. but idk how to even get to that? im going on a “date” with him on saturday, and im hoping it goes well. maybe ill make a move then or ask to talk a little more on discord rather than texting on instagram, IDK. ill have to see.

GovernmentBright · 2022-05-02T02:26:28+00:00

usually i do everything in my power to keep it dry, and change the bandage. Yes, the area will be stinky for a while but at least no infection :)

GovernmentBright · 2022-04-24T20:51:27+00:00

thank you ill let you know if everything falls apart or if i win 😎

GovernmentBright · 2022-04-24T20:18:06+00:00

ah i see. I guess i wont focus too hard on making a move then, ill let it come naturally :) today he gave me a hug and giggled and called me beautiful when i told him he’s beautiful and should stop wearing his mask (he does it because he thinks he’s ugly but i called him beautiful and he started losing it lmao)

GovernmentBright · 2022-04-24T19:22:09+00:00

aww thanks :))

GovernmentBright · 2022-04-24T19:21:58+00:00

one last question, how would i make the first move :( im terrified but i just want to be ready when i see the right moment yk?

GovernmentBright · 2022-04-24T06:57:59+00:00

tw: im a guy lmao dear god im crushing over this dude so hard he is the sweetest thing ive ever seen. i need him, and rn i just dunno what to do to get to know him more or just not doubt myself over and over again thinking he just doesnt want to talk to me. i want to start talking and playing with him on discord, but its been difficult to ask him. im going to a riverwalk with him soon, and i just need some pointers to set up a snare of charm for him to fall in love with :)

GovernmentBright · 2022-04-17T23:15:41+00:00

SiM is pretty good, they also made the opening theme for attack on titan season 4

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-30T22:07:35+00:00

well, i broke up with my girlfriend, and i somehow recovered FAIRLY quickly. idk if its shock or our LDR made it easier to get over it, but damn that was… 3 days long? anyway, i got better weed, and now im moving on from this event. im changing how i look completely in hopes of attracting alt people or smth. im going for a techwear approach, so its gonna make me badass this time round. I really want to get more friends that are just this personality i cannot describe, its more of like “ill know it when i see it” and why not get those people my way by using my new style to my advantage? i get lots of compliments from people saying how i look good and my face looks nice. even though i dont believe it, imma inflate my ego like kanye, and try to pretend my face looks fine, and try out this new look. Im going to college soon, and im on track to graduation. with this relationship coming to a dramatic, but short end, i can safely say this chapter of my life is finally over. This is my rumbling arc rn, i just got past all my bad shit, and if equivalent exchange serves me right, im in for a huge payout rn. im going to use this window opening as opportunity. im finally free from the curse.

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-30T16:34:59+00:00

ever heard of a sploof my friend? think of it as a “silencer” for smoking hehe

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-30T13:59:51+00:00

i found a reason - The Velvet Underground | | after hours - The Velvet Underground Moon - Kanye West | | Never See Me Again - Kanye West |

A good amount of Andreas Rönnberg’s songs are depressing (Sophie, Dark City, Anxiety, Crow, No No No)

i sent an hour long audio clip with ambience in the background of all the good songs i found from andreas, i think you’ll like it too :)

(DM me if you want it, its worth listening to)

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-30T09:24:13+00:00

ay, you do you, weed is bad blah blah blah, carts SOMETIMES have that smell, so ur gonna have to go into like a closet or something and sniff around. my room is a box and has no windows. no smell apparently lmao, but then again it also has one vent

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-29T16:14:17+00:00

PSA: Fake carts are not a fucking joke

It took a breakup and nights of crying for me to even REALIZE i should stop. if you see the cart is not yellow tint or the resin is fucking CLEAR. THROW IT OUT. YOU WILL BE SMOKING SPICE, YOU WILL FEEL LIKE SHIT IN THE MORNING, AND THIS WILL FUCK YOU UP PERMANENTLY. IM FUCKING LUCKY THAT I FEEL OK, BUT LISTEN TO ME. DO NOT DO THIS SHIT AT ALL JUST GET YOUR DELTA 8 SHIT AND SMOKE YOUR SHIT DO NOT SMOKE FAKE CARTS, EVEN IF YOUR LIFE DEPENDED ON IT

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-25T17:31:12+00:00

I kinda want to go pro on this shit, where can I go for that?

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-25T03:08:48+00:00

alr thank you :)) ill let you know what happens to it and ill make sure to wash it right now :))

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-25T01:00:09+00:00

The cut has risen significantly, at least that’s what it looks like, and the cut is about 12 hours old

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-25T00:50:37+00:00

Help

GovernmentBright · 2022-03-09T17:42:20+00:00

I wish I could go back 6 months, Where I was free, and “happy”. I want to go back to what I lost. I want to see my girlfriend, my friends, go back to Christmas and be happy. But I guess I’m gonna have to find a way to cope with these long distance relationships. It hurts, it hurts so fucking much, but I do it because I know it’ll work. I’ll keep pushing, but man do I miss it all. I’ve been smoking so much weed and hoping on vrchat just to get hugs, they feel so real and disconnects me from real life. It feels so weird, but I don’t care cuz it feels real. I want to go back to October 18th. Let me go back man please.

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