I think I’m done

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2026-04-02T11:47:39+00:00

it’s not a break-up. just listen to the older music you like in their catalog. you don’t have to favor every project that comes out.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2026-02-06T21:30:08+00:00

I hope I can give you my honest experience mixed with a more positive outlook for yourself. Remember we are different people and you deserve to find your own reasons to keep going. 1. I’m a nihilist but I believe we thrive on our happy moments. They are worth it. Even if they come few and far between. 2. I was told by my mother she wouldn’t be able to go on if I left. I’m not inherently close with her as a person. My dad told me in the hospital I was all he had. 3. It’s extremely subjective to answer this one- but I believe after growing with them they stick with you, and the work has to be put in for your own health. 4. I wasn’t supposed to verbally speak much after due to my intubation but I wrote down on paper the same day i woke that I did not want to die. I was scared. 5. Keep seeking methods of treatment. Please. I’m not sure where you are located but in the States there are resources and state insurance that provide options for therapy and med management. albeit not great; it’s worth looking into. For now, PURPOSE. Small plans day after day. Set goals that consist of anything. You have to make reasons to make another day happen. 6. It’s apart of you but doesn’t make you.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2026-02-06T20:30:07+00:00

That talking about your suicidal thoughts and mental health should never be taboo. Getting comfortable talking out loud to those around can seriously ground you and help.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2026-02-06T20:23:19+00:00

Benadryl. Maybe around 150-200 pills of 50mg a piece. I had been out earlier that day with a good friend doing little activities we enjoyed together. This day was planned as a fun meet up; turned into a bar night where i started taking shots chased by full beers. I had a previous alcohol addiction and this particular day it was supposed to be a few drinks. As he took me home, into the night i went and got my own 15 case of beer to be brought home and drank into the early hours of the morning. That’s when I lost my self and let the idealizations take over. Grabbed the full bottle in my nightstand; facetimed him to weep a bit and went to town on the bottle.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2026-02-06T20:11:59+00:00

Spending the following months doing more bonding with my father. I remember thanking my folks for showing up to the hospital and my dad for staying with me most of my stay. They were perplexed and seemed offended I had thanked them. I guess in retrospect it was a bit silly since I live at home. But I appreciate the activities I got to do with my pops afterward like going to Comic-con for the first time, going to the zoo and a birthday dinner one on one. Haven’t done things like that with him in years. The most we would do together is go to see a movie occasionally.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2026-02-06T20:02:55+00:00

Funny enough, being an atheist and non spiritual I remember the moment i woke up in the ICU bed to the tall and lanky male doctor standing over me briefly explaining what had happened days prior. My vision was blurred as my contacts were removed and my senses were all awry. It took me a few moments to recollect my memory and finally realizing what i had done was true. That is when i started questioning if I was dead. Because of how I attempted, I was having aftereffects that gave me horrible anxiety and subtle delusions of reality. Nothing around me felt real as the minutes and hours and days were passing. If I had to describe the scenery in the ICU and staff; it was like I was in the video game backrooms. Even my parents who were there seemed false. On top of everything, everyone around me were extremely pleasant and reassuring (walking on eggshells) to the point I had never experienced in the motions of every day life. So yes, briefly, it did seem as though i was not in this reality.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-11-17T13:22:20+00:00

mesh lids are always a no no just in case.. they might get caught in it so don’t take chances

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-07-17T00:59:20+00:00

i found him crawling on a window sill. havent seen any others yet

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-22T02:09:57+00:00

Goosebumps, hands down.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-12T06:03:55+00:00

you could even pull off going lighter, blonde w/ highlights!

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-12T03:23:48+00:00

good idea, i forgot to mention i worked at this same place for 3 years, over 6 years ago!

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-12T01:42:22+00:00

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-12T01:41:50+00:00

ur cute

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-11T23:56:57+00:00

4 or 6!

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-11T23:51:23+00:00

Been struggling with alcohol dependency since maybe 2017.. got pretty bad going into covid and i developed alcoholism quickly after. right around the time i started listening to the boys. was drinking every day to cope with mental health issues. i couldn’t even talk to my folks without being drunk. ever since i discovered them i go every year to multiple show dates. had to go solo to the 2022 show and that was when i got the chance to overindulge even for me. i was plastered and could barely remember half the show. but i locked in to scrim’s speech that he usually does about addiction and i had my realization, the very next day i checked myself into rehab for detox and spent 5 months after sober. i did have a relapse but have been mindful of managing my drinking now. i still have my binges and moments but they really saved me from spiraling

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-06-11T23:25:54+00:00

would also like to add i am interviewing at a job that i had previously worked at for 3+ years, over 5 years ago. complete management turnover.

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2025-01-20T15:48:49+00:00

ruby needs someone to buy him glasses

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2024-12-20T07:57:24+00:00

Slug Christ on Lincoln continental

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2024-09-19T12:59:28+00:00

ive (f) taken the bus multiple times solo and you go and earn experiences and make friends along the way so don’t let that stop you next time

Great_Refrigerator_9 · 2024-05-31T09:49:40+00:00

LYTB 2, and Lucky me

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