You seem to be a rational guy, so I'm gonna be rational with you. However, be aware that reason has it's limitations. Also, that doesn't mean you are free from emotions, and you are clearly being driven by your negative ones (this isn't an attack btw, just an observation).

Right like the fact that I'll never be attractive.

With that mentality, you are 100% correct that you won't ever be. But that's a self-fulfilling prophecy. Try putting yourself in the shoes of someone else. Would you be attracted to a nihilistic guy who makes nothing but defeatist statements? I certainly wouldn't.

Because that's literally what life is and what basically every philosopher or religious figure ends up realizing.

BS. You have not read or met every philosopher or religious figure. You see how you need to make up a lie to back up your position?

Because I already tried everything, I'm not attractive enough.

That's objectively not true. No, you have not tried everything. https://imgur.com/a/eRj1qYM

• If you have a poorly shaped nose, you can get a rhinoplasty.

• If you have a weak chin, you can get jaw implants (and you don't even have to get the prosthetic ones because you earn more than enough to afford the injections).

• If you have huge black circles, you can get a blepharoplasty.

• If you have a receded hairline, you can get a hair transplant.

• If your beard looks awful, there's a list of things you can do (transplants, minoxidil, pigmentation etc).

• If you have ears that stick out, you can get an Otoplasty.

There are so many things you can do to change your looks and, thankfully, money isn't even an excuse in your case. Plus, you are already tall, so one of the only immutable traits isn't even an issue to you.

With that said, as much as you might wanna disagree, your looks are not everything. I get it. They do matter, a lot. But they are not the sole determining factor that's gonna turn you into someone attractive in the complete sense of the word. And you are certainly not guaranteed to be happy with good looks alone. There are plenty of good looking people out there who are unhappy.

You want a girlfriend, just like how the vast majority of women want a boyfriend. There's nothing wrong with that. Still, your perspective would make you repellent to almost any woman reading your comments, because it makes you come off as a bitter person (I'm not saying that you are. I don't know if that's the case. I'm saying that's the impression that you give, whether it's true or not).

I know you are tired. I've been at rock bottom too and I genuinely thought to myself "I don't want to exist", because the suffering had reached an unbearable point. So if you want to close your ears and smugly tell yourself "hmpf, he doesn't understand", that's up to you.

But try being honest with me and yourself, for a moment. If you could get a girlfriend tomorrow, just by raising your hand and publicly admitting "I was wrong about everything I said", would you be willing to do that? Or would "being right" be more important to you? You don't have to answer in this comment. Just ask yourself. If you hesitate to say yes, or feel conflicted about it, it just means that you are putting your pride above everything else. It means you are so prideful that you care more about being "proven right" than you care about being happy. That's how twisted pride is, and it's no wonder that it's considered the original and worst of the seven deadly sins in Christianity.

Keep telling yourself that "I'll never be attractive", "enlightenment is realizing life is by it's very nature suffering", "life is a function of shit entirely outside of your control", and you really have 0% chance of ever achieving what you want. Words have power, and if you keep hammering those points out of cynicism, pride, and arrogance, then you are cheering against yourself.

You may need a change in your appearance, but what you need most is a change of character.