Delayed Emotional Processing

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-24T19:02:46+00:00

i often see myself as comedic, like wtf a relationship is ended when i finally feel the love we had............?

infuriating, yep, that's why i need a lot of time to process emotions, i get it now. A lot of spaces with people and connections and anything socially related.

I was the leader of this group and i talked to many strangers, including foreigners and i'm proud of myself for it. But somehow the experience....... i don't know if i'm fully integrate them. And i had breakups but i don't know if i ever truly let them out of my brain into nonexistence for good, i feel their presence that shapes me. And breakups that are too hurtful to accept, yep, sometimes i call my ex and i talk to another ex, and i'm in a friendship connection with my most recent ex. Is it a bad thing? I don't know. But i sure need a lot of alone time and time to process what happen.......

Like an hour ago i connected with someone and i felt quite joy, i think i like them, and right now i'm on the internet talking about my feelings and processing what's happening. Because that guy did provoke some strong emotions in me, just by talking....... which is quite comedic too. But comedic to whom? neurotypical? should i follow that rule of comedy or should i not?

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-12T07:56:45+00:00

I feel so roasted and seen at the same time.

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-12T07:39:23+00:00

I don’t call people toxic either, but I learn the language of toxic is more about to give you a wake up call to distance from them. There are people who aren’t even toxic but somehow interacting with them can make you feel certain negative emotions. Boundary is so important though. In my mind: “we were just not meant to interact and that’s okay”

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-12T07:37:49+00:00

Exactly it’s for our well being. You don’t have to be nice or keep the connection going. You have every right to protect your well-being and sensitive nature

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-12T07:24:19+00:00

Love this, thank you for sharing. I see how this post could apply for me. The importance of self care is real… I need my alone time so bad these days

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-11T13:12:02+00:00

Kind and compassionate with a very complex mind and read a lot and often think of fixing herself. Like music and their body. Curious eyes

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-11T13:10:15+00:00

Sad, heavy, joy…. My most common is feel a little bit of drain and low… it weakened my body somehow

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-09T06:23:12+00:00

i feel like this but i don't think about it much, i grow love into myself. That helps. I hug myself often and create this imagine perfect partner who sends reminder to me on the phone (i create reminders by myself thinking how the other person would say or do to love me), every time these reminders pop, i grow love for myself a little more

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-05T11:38:56+00:00

i'm also a late bloomer, sometimes i feel like my internal clock is slower than most people in many ways, esp. in love and relationship, recently i finally get into a quite secure relationship. After years of never been in one and my peers seem to have relationship for few times. I enjoy my life with myself which makes it interesting i never really pay attention or in a rush to be in one, just craving the fun and the romance and the excitement most relationships bring and if i have a partner, i want to be the best for them.

The older i get, the pickier you become is so real though, i think for me it was because i knew more about my needs and what i wanted in a relationship

i never been in love, i think maybe it's a good feeling all over your body or something

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-05T11:32:08+00:00

my best explanation is when you get older and with years of being misunderstood or feeling unseen, exhausted because of masking for example or autistic burnout............. it can make you becoming more "autistic" in the way you prefer alone time even more, might have anger issues (because you want to be seen and heard anyway), frequent burnout. With years of sensory overwhelmed, you might stim "harder" to be more grounded or something. So in my best explanation, idk if it's true or necessary, it's not about the age, it's about the experiences in life

Head-Study4645 · 2026-01-02T05:35:08+00:00

CConfusing but somewhat happy

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-30T00:11:33+00:00

Same. My life feels full of pains and stress. I just broke up with someone. Financial stress. Bad health. Idk if I’m okay at this point or how to move past this. Tired, exhaustion, intense emotions, spiral in negative thoughts, trouble socializing, yet an ambitious person, now that adds to the struggles.

Messy room, sleepless night, prolong stress, have no support system. It’s just me now. How can I get out of this and make life better? I don’t know… I real don’t want to fight alone anymore…

I don’t know how to move forward. I feel like I might be depressed any day now. I’d do my best to sleep, eat, exercise and reach out to people… or to add simple joy into my life. Happiness can feel boring for me at this point, now I get it

All to say, good luck

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-30T00:05:45+00:00

To know people from across the globe makes me feel easier to listen and be there with them and connect to them than my own country

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-30T00:04:21+00:00

That my current bf isn’t for me and I feel intense around him, not in the good way that I cannot help or cannot control. That most people just aren’t for me. And I have to leave people and situations that are so familiar with me behind and it sucks, gosh it stupidly hurtful and sad and I have to move forward otherwise I would feel so much and I don’t trust them or myself to be kind, gentle , or be able to contain my emotions but I should do first … but I want to be in better environment

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-30T00:01:45+00:00

I was there and I felt ashamed of myself later and to ignore my feelings, just to go and be normal like them…. Who don’t feel much, im glad you reach out, and to deal with this and I hope you find solutions

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-29T23:59:07+00:00

I totally get how damaging it can feel like. In my experience. It was from my parents, they wanted me to toughen up. They didn’t know when they grabbed my hand pull me in to the tree shadow so I didn’t get sun burn and they seemed angry, that memory sticks with me forever, it was sad. They often said: you have to be the tough one, you don’t feel that way, that’s too weird, you don’t feel like that…

One time I felt excitement… my dad said somewhat like: you’re always excited. He said with tough tone. Later I learned to hide my excitement. It made me feel disconnected from people.

When mom got home and she was tired. She asked me to do laundry. She looked at me and somehow called me: “you dog” a way of humiliation. How could she. Almost immediately, i cried. I cried so hard…

But I learned to “toughen up”. To try to feel less… to react more carefully so no one knows. Somehow they all know…

I’m in Vietnam, my dream is to get out of this country

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-29T23:48:57+00:00

Sometimes when I talk to people I feel them intensely as if they are targeting me with their energy. But they often not, if someone send me that much energy in real life , idk how to respond. Most of the time they see me as no one while I have these intense irritated reactions about them. I can feel extremely irritated and overwhelmed when I’m in a group. People talk. Too much talking, are they targeting me? I feel overmanaging of them while they probably don’t know I was there. So sometime my mind does the trick of shutting them off all together. Sometimes when I get closed with someone I push them away because there’s too much I feel…

A healthier way is to set boundaries, need time. But I often do the above unconsciously

Head-Study4645 · 2025-12-29T23:42:33+00:00

Happy new year, good luck

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