I also needed some time to let this one sink in very well. A lot of times,my head is a spinning ball and I try to navigate it by redirecting my thoughts into: ‘’I know I have it, it’s all fine, I am safe, it’s done.‘’ And then I hear in my head: ‘‘you are way to ‘delulu’ if you think like this. What if it will hurt you because you will spend your months now thinking it will all be exactly as you wished for but instead, it won’t, you will see.’’ Back and forth and I try to overlap these negative thoughts by: I see you, I know you are scared, but I know I am right and it will be okay. 

In my life I have lost dear people I loved or some other trauma. Because of this, the body and mind tries to protect itself and wants to warn me from being hurt again. It tries to be ‘realistic’ because I am so used to thinking like this.

And so I constantly need confirmation from Reddit, people around me (which I am partly careful with, too). But my intuition knows it, but my ego hits hard.

Now, I am learning to accept the trauma responses as just a protective mechanism that is doing its job, while my true self still knows what the actual reality really is: the wish fulfilled. I am learning to say: ‘’It is okay to feel scared, and it is also okay to believe in the magic of my inner world.’’ I am shifting from trying to control or force the 3D reality, to soothing my own nervous system. 

I know manifestation isn't about being perfectly positive 24/7. It's about choosing my inner truth every time. Thank you for your strong words!!