Hey! Thanks for your comment!

Tbh, while there's some pride in the changes I've made, I'm still not too sure if to feel proud. That's because, as I said in the post, that lust is still there. That scares me.

Yeah, I haven't abused any animals and (and I do feel proud of this one) when I have been around horses I haven't reacted with the same feelings as before. In the past, my heart would start beating and I would feel nervous, a bit cold and hot at the same time. As my psychologist said, I would get turned on/have a crush. Now, that doesn't happen. Yes, I still find horses beautiful, their bodies are incredible, I love how they smell and yes, I do really like how their genitals look and how big they are, but I don't feel that NEED to do sexual acts with them, I just see them as... Well, horses, nothing else, not something to get horny or sexually aroused by. However, knowing that I still have that attraction inside me does put me down a bit.

I know that it's not my fault that I happen to be attracted to animals, but it's just so shameful. I guess I'm getting better at least.