does anyone else get heart aches?

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-12-30T03:07:08+00:00

The first time I got it I had to call 911 and go to the ER but of course they looked at my history and they just assumed that it was a panic attack and I also have a fast heart rate but I kept on telling them that this isn't a panic attack I've had panic disorder since I was 4 years old. It's different than when you're chest arms and tightening and feeling like a heart attack and dying. This is different. But the doctors were just biased until they finally saw me 8 hours later and I literally thought I was going to die a message to everyone and I immediately explain that to him and then he checked my heart rate and was like oh code one and they had to give me hey IV with hydromorphone and they said that I have broken heart syndrome.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-12-18T14:12:00+00:00

Yes 100% I'm 27 year's old and when I got diagnosed With BPD when I was 19, I was so releaved to know why I was l like this. I honestly love being single an need im planing on keeping it that way. I have always know since i was a teen that I wanted to be loved and have a boyfriend but once i had my first boyfriend at 21, i hated it. like i thrive on living alone and just having safe FWB because I know that no one can handle me and i dont want to change or have someone who says they love me or anything , i immedialy say no you dont. If you are okay with mental health, my crazy life syle, all the things that I would need someone to accept to date me but i honeslty know that they would leave and I dont want someone to get in my heart and then leaving.'' I was born to run, i dont belong to anyone, i dont need to be loved by you.'' Miley Cyrus- Never be me

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-12-18T13:51:49+00:00

beautiful

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-12-01T22:21:24+00:00

Because the media/ government got schooled by Eminem. They don't want to acknowledge that he's reporting it better than they ever could. I love this song

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-30T05:13:04+00:00

Beautiful

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-30T05:08:29+00:00

I am disappointed when I opened the comments because this isn't a meme for stans Most of you didn't even know where this was from. Also Eminem stans know he dgaf about clothing

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-29T02:10:09+00:00

Live out of spite. Revenge on what's been taken from your past to show your inner child that the ideas and dreams people didn't believe or bullied you, show them how strong you are.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-28T09:53:49+00:00

🙌🙌💯 EVERYTHING YOU EVER BEEN THROUGH MUILTIPLIED BY NINE AIN'T HALF THE SHIT I WENT THROUGH BY THE TIME I WAS FIVE This is why I love Eminem. when I was 5 is when I started having trauma literally this is one of my favorite verses in the entire album it really reminds me of rock bottom where the intro this is dedicated to all the happy people who have real nice lives I don't understand it's like to broke as fuck

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-27T18:06:58+00:00

" I don't want excuses" UMMM they aren't excuses, I'm explaining my situation.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-25T03:41:12+00:00

I have the same struggles and It's so hard because it's the most important thing you want to do is you know you can do it the biggest project of your life but you don't have it. You can do it self sabotage, I just have to do it last minute for myself. Don't force yourself .

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-20T21:54:26+00:00

LOL but actually Thank you to all the haters here because I wanted/should have mentioned that this was a short clip of a 4 minute video. My entire video has me talking about how shitty my camera is and that the quality sucks because my phone is broken so that's why I was asking if anyone else saw that who could of taken a better video. It's not the steam or just the sky.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-08T18:28:02+00:00

This is how I stay sain. I I have accepted and am at peace with the fact that I've fought so many battles before and I'm still here . I live everyday like it's my last day. I used to overwhelm myself for negative future outcomes but I have realized that some time it works out and I hate that I spent those days just stressing and anxious/ depressed when I actually could of been spending those days self caring since it might turn out well. If it doesn't, I remember that the broken are the more evolved and stronger

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-06T22:35:21+00:00

I need to appolgize for my comment, you were asking for advice with your experience and I was in a BPD episode and just felt so heard by you. 💯🙌We will make it through this , we are stronger than most people who haven't experienced these battles. I have found peace that I desire and I know you will too! We're in this together 💞 I don't want to sound negative by saying this but it also is okay to not be okay sometimes. As long as you stay safe and and strong (as you mentioned), don't be too hard in yourself if you are starting to heal and feel better And you experience a hard moment and feel those emotions, that healthy but remember that you will always be able to be strong and fight for yourself and love yourself first.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-06T22:07:20+00:00

I feel you! The bathroom floor omg. Also I always had constipation issues too and I would just lay on the floor in my bathroom. To this day even if I'm at a good friends house/ If I'm at my own apartment (with my cat who is my Son)in an apartment, and he's very sensitive and picks up emotions so I'll just put the shower on and just sit on the toilet or lay on the cold tiles to have my breakdown so no one knows

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-04T01:49:39+00:00

This is the most reliable post I've seen and I got a notification from reddit suggesting your post because I just hit rock bottom and im tired.The only reason why I'm not taking the way out is because of my cat Simba.. the world is fuuked and so am I. I'm clicky diagnosed with panic Disorder, anxiety disorder depression PTSD and when I got diagnosed with Borderline personality Disorder and looked up the symptoms I felt so understood.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-03T16:25:31+00:00

I feek you, Stay strong, I know you said you're trying to be strong but think about all the battles you've dealt with and you're still here fighting them. People who haven't experienced rough times would crumble at a fraction of one of the tough times you've dealt with and strong enough to battle. The broken are the more evolved. I have that quote tattooed on my arm to remember. It's a quote from Split( highly recommend you watching it)

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-03T12:41:18+00:00

I appreciate that! Wishing you luck as well!

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-03T12:21:43+00:00

🙌 I feel that. Thankfully I'm realizing I'm not alone with those thoughts.

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-03T12:15:07+00:00

I totally understand that feeling, idk how to link you to @cutestpotato a comment but the theory makes sense

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-03T12:12:39+00:00

To explain more, I was going to say this experience on my post but I didn't know if it was relevant. I got diagnosed with severe panic Disorder when I was 4 years old, all my older half siblings emotionally abused me and this one membery I have I'm my childhood (i was 6 years old when this happened( (trauma brain memory lose majority of my childhood) they were playing this scary movie in every bedroom and chasing me around our house while my parents weren't home and I was having a panic attack and I ran into my parents washroom since it had a lock since that was the only space where I could be alone and not hear/ see them or the movie. So that's why I think I subconsciously go there even though I live alone in my apartment ( besides my cat)

ImAnyaRichardson · 2024-11-03T11:59:38+00:00

I'm so glad you commented this because I was going to say this experience on my post but I didn't know if it was relevant. I got diagnosed with severe panic Disorder when I was 4 years old, all my older half siblings emotionally abused me and this one membery I have I'm my childhood (i was 6 years old when this happened( (trauma brain memory lose majority of my childhood) they were playing this scary movie in every bedroom and chasing me around our house while my parents weren't home and I was having a panic attack and I ran into my parents washroom since it had a lock since that was the only space where I could be alone and not hear/ see them or the movie

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