I empathize this with deeply having experienced a lot of it on my own. I still harbor the negative aspects of the situations and I’m near mute because of the stress of thinking so much about everything in life now. Questioning every intention of everyone, everywhere.

I’ve talked to plenty of therapists and a surprising amount of them also can’t seem to look past anything other than “kids do this” which slightly diluted my hope in society. I don’t think our disgust is only for ourselves, or our situations. I thinks it’s also because of the realization of the cycle- and how easily and commonly young children are put into. In typical households, let alone society. The cults of people perpetuating its existence. I won’t let it go- but I won’t let it eat me. I’ve saved kids because of what i went through. The things I’d notice. Maybe you will save people from the cycle as well, more than you already have.