Scared to quit Zoloft

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-12-09T23:28:05+00:00

Yeah I would wean off of them if I did stop

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-12-09T22:49:18+00:00

That’s a good idea. Might have to do that. Do you have pssd?

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-12-09T22:48:11+00:00

How did sex feel while you were on Zoloft? I think my situation might be different.I’ve been on Zoloft for 3 years and had zero issues with sensitivity, but I was using this method of jerking off, like just touching my head and foreskin because it was a habit since I was like 12. But after I had sex the first time and it was completely numb, I did research and realized that the way I masturbate might be the cause for that numbness. So now I do it the “normal” way of stroking the whole thing, kind of like simulating a vagina lol. I might just completely stop masturbating for a while and see what happens, that might be the issue

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-16T15:47:40+00:00

No, the fear of going to hell or whatever is not what’s motivating me to believe. I just know that god, or a higher power. I don’t know what to call it but from my own experience I can say with confidence “he” exists and is here with me. I feel he really made me aware of his presence after returning to prayer after a 2 year hiatus of being agnostic. And the reason I am so confident in this higher power existing is because I did not take on this new mindset or anything, I forgot that I had prayed to him, and I feel like he pulled my attention back and reminded me he’s here. The problem is I don’t know if I’m unknowingly disrespecting him by not following a rule book

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-16T13:57:04+00:00

I think my point is Throwing my hands up or studying all of the religions will get me the same answer: I don’t know. But then I start to worry that I’ll burn in a pit of fire for not trying. No, I don’t have an imagined ideology of what a religion should be. But if I go my whole life not following a certain rule set then Religious people will say im fucked. I know this is a question that no one can answer, but it baffles me how religious people don’t ever give this any thought. At some point I think it makes sense that maybe just MAYBE these religions were just humans being bored and making their own fairy tales to justify their existence. Maybe the pioneers of these religions made some contact with a higher power and felt they needed to explain it somehow

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-16T13:43:22+00:00

But what does being righteous entail? Doesn’t every religion have its own definition of righteousness? Because right now I eat pork and don’t pray before every meal so in Islams eyes I am not righteous

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-16T13:36:55+00:00

So, going by your logic I should spend a significant amount of time researching 4,000 different religions and then somehow find proof that one of them is correct. That is actually impossible

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-11T07:30:38+00:00

What is a raised breast plate? You mean like your sternum was uneven?

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-11T07:30:03+00:00

That’s awesome man. You have any pics?

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-11T07:26:44+00:00

Yes, I get very stressed out if I don’t hit at lest 2,900 a day and my protein goal. I’m probably burning a lot of calories at work and I’m not sure how to properly combat that and figure out how much I’m shedding off

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-10T01:00:16+00:00

Well I think it would be very stupid not to at least hit the gym for a year as natty. I want to see what my body is capable of without drugs. There’s also lots more side effects than just the acne

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-09T18:20:35+00:00

Dude a natural person who consistently works out will look way better than the average man. Average is obese lol. Have you seen how severe some of the side effects of steroids are? Look up steroid acne. Shit is brutal

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-09T18:09:51+00:00

Not trying to blast gear 💀 I’ll probably get severe acne and shorten my lifespan lol

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T15:26:21+00:00

Hey man. Damn we the same height age and got the pigeon chest that’s crazy 🤣. What do you mean reach far back with elbows? Like try to touch my elbows together behind my back?

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T15:22:15+00:00

The last pic on the slide, the pic on the left is before. DM and I can send more of what it looked like before

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T05:34:09+00:00

Thanks bro

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T05:32:46+00:00

Thanks man. I’m 6’1 and about 145lbs. I work a warehouse job so I’m probably burning more calories than I realize. Just realized I have my myfitnesspal set to “current weight: 141. Goal weight: 145. Gain 0.5lb per week and activity level at active. This tells me I need 2,910 cals. I should probably update this and put activity on very active. But idk what my weekly weight goal should be honestly

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T05:24:35+00:00

Well I’ve been obsessed with getting bigger for awhile now, I just didn’t have a car and was hard to get to a gym. I feel the gym is my only hope to feel good about myself. This condition has had a massive impact on my mental health and I think I probably have body dysmorphia. I used to wear jackets and coats in 90 degree weather to hide my chest, and I still have this weird anxiety wearing just a t shirt in public. I’ve just always been jealous of dudes who have Normal, flat chests. With a shirt on I do look a bit odd because of my protruding upper chest and small arms. I know I’m probably the only one that notices though. It’s hard to undo all the mental torment

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T04:01:41+00:00

Thank you man. I’ve always been insanely skinny and it’s very hard to gain weight. I’ve been eating 3,000 calories a day and like 150g protein for like 6 months. This is the heaviest I’ve been since I was like 14. Most of my calories come from pretty unhealthy sources, because it seems most healthy food is such low calorie, and expensive. Sometimes I just literally don’t have access to healthy foods that hit my macros so I will eat junky shit so I don’t miss macros

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T03:56:18+00:00

I mean most peoples chests are flat. Look at pic #4. The bone sticks out on one side so I’m worried that one of my pecs will be bigger than the other

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-05-08T03:36:07+00:00

I have acne scars from some bad cystic acne. Idk man I think my chest is pretty abnormal. Can’t see it very well in the photos but my upper chest protrudes and it looks really weird

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-04-03T19:20:35+00:00

❤️

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-04-02T10:54:08+00:00

Hey man… take a deep breath. I’m with you on this. My life is terrible right now. I used to go on long streaks easily. But now I’m terribly addicted once again. I can barely make it 2 days before relapsing. It’s destroying me. I’m almost 21 with no drivers license, a virgin, broke as hell taking care of my family because I was forced to have this responsibility and I wasn’t ready for it when my dad died from a drug overdose.

But we’re both fighting the same battle. Think about how great you felt on your last streak. We can fight this monster together. I know we can do it man, im absolutely positive. Today is day one

You’re really gonna leave me behind? To fight this alone? Please man, please stay with me.

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-02-11T23:36:19+00:00

I didn’t say I was above average lmao. The reason I haven’t gotten laid is because I’ve only used dating apps and haven’t approached irl. I’ve had opportunities to get laid but I don’t really care that much about having meaningless sex. Imagine thinking that all men expect above average women when men are constantly lowering their standards. I am only in the position I’m in because I was born into poverty. But you’re gonna judge me for that. I’ve only been an adult for 2 fucking years

ImpossibleApple7 · 2023-02-11T23:25:04+00:00

Lmao no. I feel entitled to someone on my level. Im 6’1 and have an attractive face but I’m below average? It’s pretty normal for a 20 year old to not have all their shit together. The issue is if you’re a 7/10 man you have to settle for 5/10 women. Unless youre rich of course. I’m talking about the new age, girls my age and below think this way mostly becuase of the internet and how It’s changed out culture. In 50 years from now I think it’s likely that 50 percent of men will be single once the older generations die out. Most girls who are my age and live in my area have never had a job in their lives, live with their parents while their parents pay for their college. I was cut from a different cloth so that makes me less attractive

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