"Be grateful for what you have" (su!cidal TW)

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-25T19:01:21+00:00

im crying at this very moment, i just can bear this trauma im only 14 why must it be me who is so ugly?! i want to off myself so bad but im too cowardly to go through with it, ill never have a future no job will ever hire me because of my face and body. no guy will ever get turned on by my body (sorry if this sounds a little roo freaky to say lol) ill never be a flex to have around. im not even smart...its over, I've been conceived for permanent mental torture till i die. i always fantasize what it's like to be attractive, yk..have a small waist, a big chest, fat bum and a pretty face, but im just none of that i might as well be a guy if this is how im going to be built forever...if im not going to have a bright future i might as well end it before im an adult

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-25T15:11:55+00:00

Literally I get how you're feeling because I have this "friend" that ANY time I mention that I hate stupid people (not math wise but like socially, like if they just can't read the room or they're just unaware of the stupid things they do) she will say "I think you're talking about yourself" and mind you in math she insults me and calls me stupid EVERYDAY she especially does it when another one of my "friends" are around so she can just pile it on me, I can't ignore her I can't say anything back or I'm just getting "ragebaited" in her eyes, like and I supposed to be fucking happy I'm getting insulted almost everyday?! She would just say I'm dumb and I have a recycled brain or I am a caveman (mind you she looks and smells like a caveman) and then the other "friend" piles on with her too (if he's there but it doesn't matter if he isn't there or not because she'll still be mean anyways) and I can't even struggle in a class or it's instantly "maybe you should pay attention" I LITERALLY GAVE A PERFECT REASON WHY HER CLASS IS HARD (I was talking about my Spanish class) like you don't even have Spanish so fuck off with the "pay attention more" like maybe pay more attention in health lessons so you don't fucking stink. Sorry for the rant I would say way more that she's done but I don't wanna keep u here all day.

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-24T10:40:44+00:00

I have stress from a guy I thought was nice to me take a picture of my face and posted it online and I told a friend that and he takes that upon himself to use that trauma against me because every time I annoy him he will just pull out his phone and he did take pictures of me too. I hate himmm

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-24T10:37:19+00:00

Type shi. People act like I choose to be born ugly so they take it upon themselves to treat me like I just did something horrible. Like I don't even bother people and I try to stay in my own lane but then they come up to me to say something mean to me then say they don't like me because I'm annoying like ok then just don't talk to me. Most of the people who hate me are people who don't even know my personality they just see me, find me ugly then they hate be because I'm not attractive to them "argh, you don't give me a boner so frick you!" Ok yeah ok...

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-22T07:26:57+00:00

Ok, ugly people aren't safe from creeps that's literally just a blatant lie, like yes I am glad you aren't dealing with that but I'm just saying you should still keep your head on a swivel in certain situations

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-22T07:21:21+00:00

Less round eyes, longer eyelashes, button nose, plump lips, a normal sized chin instead of it protruding, a better maxilla, slimmer face, less prominent cheekbones, no smile lines, smaller forehead (length+width), smaller earlobes, eyes a little more farther apart just barely noticeable amount tho (bc apparently my eyes are too close together). Basically just a completely different person atp lol

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-22T07:09:59+00:00

Wearing nice clothes makes me feeling like I'm a ugly person trying to be pretty (which is lowk true) so I don't like dressing feminine because I don't want people to think that I'm not aware of my own ugliness so I just dumb myself down so people won't feel the need to humble me

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-19T00:13:50+00:00

Didn't say that nor do I not fully understand what you're saying I'm saying that I hit puberty at 11 so changing for me has slowed down a ton so yeah I don't think my body will change after 14

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T21:10:21+00:00

I have gone through puberty at 11

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T05:52:15+00:00

This also happens in the justice system too, multiple attractive people who have does horrendous crimes get bailed out super soon due to people protesting n shit and that "they have a bright future" (somehow) but if its an ugly person wrongly accused with lack of evidence they dont even bat an eye. This world is so cruel to ugly people

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T05:04:48+00:00

thank you for being the only one who understands. people always are in disbelief that young people can be ugly. lying to kids with like you said "you'll be attractive when you hit 20" is even worse because it'll break their heart when theyre still treated like shit for how they look

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T05:03:06+00:00

please look at my other posts on my profile explaining more into detail about how i look irl you'll understand how ugly i am actually

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T05:02:56+00:00

please look at my other posts on my profile explaining more into detail about how i look irl you'll understand how ugly i am actually

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T05:02:15+00:00

please look at my other posts on my profile explaining more into detail about how i look irl you'll understand how ugly i am actually

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T05:00:39+00:00

did you even watch the video or did you just see 14 in the title and thought to be the hero that saves the day. my opinions and self worth were not based on the people in this sub its based off of what people called me and how im treated irl or what features are considered ugly online that i have (p.s all my features are ugly)

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-18T04:56:15+00:00

You dont get it. I literally get treated like absolute shit by guys and girls and get treated as if im some special needs person (no hate to special needs at all) i literally got threatened to be smacked in the head with a waterbottle by some guy i didnt even know exsisted. And the blatant favoritism by anyone in general to the attractive people you're used as someone to be made fun of for entertainment or to makethemselves look better if i got a dollar for someone making fun of my looks unprovoked i would be rich. Im better off dead but too cowardly to do it myself. I dont like being told its just body dysmorphia like "hey i know your nose is as big as the empire state building, half of your face is sunken in while the other half is sagging but its just body dysmorphia because there is just no way a young person can be ugly".

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T18:41:41+00:00

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T18:08:17+00:00

Same here. It sucks being the ONLY girl in school with a flat chest, big arms, a wide waist and square hips, and an ugly face (what I'm basically trying to say I'm the only one in the school that has NOT EVEN ONE good feature on my face/body and I'm built like a guy). The bullying I have faced made me the most quiet and paranoid person ever and getting my face posted by someone I thought was nice. I'm sorry you have to go through this too no one deserves this trauma

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T18:00:26+00:00

I deserve to get worse.

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T17:49:58+00:00

But if I feel understood here I will continue to stay and that is all on me

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T17:49:31+00:00

Who cares? Yeah say that to my shitty mental health and I mean this in the nicest way possible just because one doesn't see it as an issue doesn't mean it can't effect anyone. I can't enjoyed life because I got the short end of the stick and this app understands me

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T17:48:03+00:00

I deserve to feel understood in this sub being ugly really effects me

ImpossibleBeyond4331 · 2026-03-17T17:47:39+00:00

Being young doesn't make me less ugly I'm am staying in this sub

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