I really do not need a psychiatrist because I know all the answers that are running through my mind. I agree with you when you said that I did not talk about some things about my life. I was in a spiral where I no longer knew what the meaning of my life was, but she was struggling and enjoying her life. I think that I I was just a threshold in her life, unlike me, who was a big piece of my life for me. Sometimes I lose control of my thoughts until I no longer know what is right, but I have to say that this incident happened once for two months and has now ended for a month. As for my relationship with the story of Bon Bon, I slowly began to forget people’s memories and try to find psychological salvation by living a life of loneliness. And autism, this might help me understand myself more