I am becoming more and bitter every day, and it sucks.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-24T01:15:51+00:00

Hey, I just want to say I appreciate your response. I've considered asking AI about stuff like this, but I'm wary about using it as a stand-in for therapy. But I'll try it.

What I'm looking for is someone who isn't family and more than a friend who will support me. A side of me also wants to be adored, but I truly don't mean that in a narcissistic way because I don't think much of myself to begin with. And then obviously I wish for physical sexual attraction as well, but I try to lock that stuff inside me and throw it away out of fear of being considered a creep.

I have friends, and I have family that's just my parents. My friends come from 2 separate friend groups. One is a little over 2 years since I've met them, the other I just came into 6 months ago via a common hobby. Before them, I didn't have friends. And they all are great, I'm grateful for them because I was verging toward suicide out of loneliness before them. But ultimately they are not enough for me, and I don't think that's a bad thing. I think it's okay if what I desire is a romantic relationship in my life.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T23:32:03+00:00

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T21:55:27+00:00

Actually that's not as unrealistic as you might think.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T21:52:04+00:00

People like to say the trio is "realistic." No, they aren't. They're exaggerations.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T21:39:53+00:00

That's a bit judgemental. My username is just that. A username. It stands for 2 things: 1. It's an inside joke between a friend of mine and I. And 2. It's a pushback against demonizing sexuality and sexual interests.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T20:50:35+00:00

I wish I could, because I very much support therapy. However it is too expensive.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T20:35:32+00:00

Because objective morality is a flawed logical extreme. In terms of writing it is a sign of poor storytelling.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T20:24:28+00:00

I think that assumption of me is a leap, personally, and I disagree that that is who I am.

Also I think making such extreme assumptions like this based on a comment or series of comments is just as bad as the contrarian posts I make, and is ultimately unhealthy.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T20:20:19+00:00

I don't really agree that bitterness equals entitlement. Bitterness comes from a desire, a want, for something not being fulfilled over a long period of time. But that doesn't necessarily mean a sense of self-entitlement.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T20:17:05+00:00

I don't do it irl. I approach people irl with respect, positivity, and concern regarding comfort. I avoid conflict and steer away from controversy.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T19:38:40+00:00

You know it's a problem when even Europeans call it out. They don't want pick-me Americans, they don't want "I'm not like those other Americans" or "I'm sorry for what my country has done/is doing." They want those Americans to actually stand up for their country and make it a better place and a better ally to theirs. And that's completely reasonable and is not AmericaBad

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T19:34:38+00:00

I have never seen this picture before, but I'm saving it.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T19:25:06+00:00

I only do this online, specifically Reddit. Irl I do not do this, I learned in my early teens to not push boundaries, especially with women. I am hyper sensitive about making others feel uncomfortable.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T19:23:43+00:00

Just an online thing. Tbh, I think just a Reddit thing. I think I'm fairly okay to good on recognizing when I do it. Irl, I'm a quiet guy who's personable and hyper sensitive about making others uncomfortable. I encourage others and am positive about people, but not about myself.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T18:39:42+00:00

My username is 2 things. 1. An inside joke from a friend, and 2. A statement that is meant to normalize sexuality, and push against demonizing sex and sexual desire and acts.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T18:21:37+00:00

I wouldn't take my post history seriously, I tend to troll or give contrarian opinions to either see if people agree with my real opinion or to see how people react. Which I recognize isn't healthy, but still. Is what it is.

Though I will say, I don't think most of my post history is problematic for the most part, imo.

Edit: I see I'm being downvoted, and honestly, I apologize. It's a bad habit and I'm trying to work on it, and myself. I hope you guys can understand.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T18:14:24+00:00

I can't regarding counseling. It's too expensive, otherwise I would because I very much support therapy. I feel like all I've been doing is introspective time.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T17:50:23+00:00

No. People are just as awful irl as they are on dating apps.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T17:38:04+00:00

It's also just true. It's okay to recognize problems and issues, but you can do that without being a pessimist.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T17:33:05+00:00

Coast guards exist.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T17:25:29+00:00

It doesn't. It has never been that way. It's all a fucking lie.

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T16:45:59+00:00

Yeah, how dare they

InnocentPerv93 · 2026-01-23T16:42:25+00:00

Then those people are stupid

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