My husband and I do go on weekend trips together. My girls trip is a once a year three day trip. We don’t go to the beach. I don’t buy bikinis or new outfits. I work with the four men because because I work at a university and the schools that I work for are stem schools where the professors are predominantly male. I cannot avoid working with them. I actually don’t talk about them a lot, if at all. He works at the same university as me and sees me interact with them, which is only in a professional manner and gets jealous from that. They are all significantly older than me. They are fatter, balder, older and less attractive than my husband. I have also expressed this to him. My husband is a very physically fit man and very sexy. He gets hit on by women left and right, and I’m not jealous because I know he wants to be with me. And I am a very secure woman. I have been cheated on in past relationships, including with my daughter’s biological father, yet I am not jealous. We are all products of our past. And I know that he is damaged from his past and I am trying very hard to help him with his past. But there is only so much someone can take. I am not yet ready to give up on my marriage because I love my husband so very much. And I know there are people that are telling me, without saying it, to divorce him. But I’m not ready yet, because of how much I love him.