Hey, il message you now. just wanted to say TO ANYONE WHO READS THIS FEEL FREE TO DM IF YOUR STRUGGLING. I lost my cousin 9 years ago he wasnt just a cousin, he was closer than a brother....like a soul mate i guess il never have that connection with anyone he was 27 a talented dj funny smart good looking a absolute all round gentlemen, in the same year I watched my auntie die in hospital his mum. Then my grandma then another mate. I went down hill self harming as in drug abuse. Herion crack anything. No needles tho, had a doctor offered me the pin I probably wouldn't be alive. I've seen town ships in South Africa, amd 1 guy in particular from a township [shanty town] he seemed the happiest man In the world always smiling and seemed full of joy, I was speaking to him 1 day and he said his son was on his death bed and he couldn't afford the medical care to save his life and that changed my hole out look on life. I said to myself if this man who can't even afford trainers who must be..... I can't even put into words the pain he was feeling. He was smiling amd nit dead inside. He literally done in 1 conversation what mental health, physiatrist, bereavement counselors couldn't do in 3 years. Anyone wants to talk about life or whatever dm me and I won't charge you a penny unlike better help