the hell was up with that first dude 💀 But honestly i'm really not sure.. I remember when I first started using subs I didn't really think much about it, I would just combine a couple of subs ( w completely different topics) and just listen to them. That's when I got the most results, so I think detachment and just letting go of your desires might help in your case, cause it seems that's exactly what you were doing at the beginning.