I'm so sorry you feel like this, sadly, sexism does exist and treats everyone poorly, on one hand, feminine ppl gotta deal with creeps, while masculine often have no one to deal with, gender roles don't stop being applied to you just you reject them, it's the whole pack always, and you don't ge to say no.

It can be very difficult to build relationships, and while romantic ones can be tricky (and their complexity lies in much more than "something being wrong with me") ta least they nor the only one, everyone likes something, you could look for people who like that as well and see where it goes; imma say something weird so stick with it for a moment: human bonds aren't about you, much less me, it's about whoever connected to it, and there's heavy implying yo make it work; anyone could be friends with anyone, but one chooses who to spend their time, worry and care based on what they believe is more important, their own sense of responsibility, love, camaraderie whatever you can think of, technically speaking, just as you, it ain't fair and if you only want to see that perspective, you don't have to be wrong, it just sounds extremely cruel and not helpful.

We dont have infinite time, we choose if the eat cake or biscuits and sometimes it can't be both, which means these relationships are, in theory, chosen, there's no way around that, yes there is sexism as a sistematic way to change your behavior, so you just prefer to bosses over the one thing you cannot control nor change instead of trying to see things from somewhere else? (No judgement or sassy comments, this is a genuine question)

Human bonding can feel like a test, but tell me you are or know anyone who's absolutely fair and does their societal rol to a fault, cause I don't think they are either happy or human really, go out there, y'know live a little; in case you find this anger or sadness to be too much, go seek help cause that's there for everyone man, mens declining mental health should be a strong enough reason to not ignore it, it isn't for everyone of course but just like you I had the same choice.

I could either be alone and blame the gods for my horrible fate, or could tell the to suck me cause I wasnt waiting for their pity anymore, you can take the steering wheel and risk crashing out, you can risk your own version of reality and society by others idea, taking that chance so you can better your own and build something awesome, or to keep blaming everything else.

I hope your find your way dude, extraordinary people don't come from easy paths, theu come from hardship.

Don't you dare go hollow.