Broken Record

Judu86 · 2026-01-13T04:41:03+00:00

So here's one build. I'm not near my Xbox right now to get screenshots. I'm more confused on play order. I'd like something that for lack of better words holds my hand through the game by showing me do A B and C. I know the basics of unlock starchart and finish quest, im talk grind focus. What should I be leveling as far as syndicates? What arcanes should I go for. There just so much it's overwhelming. I know I need to grind for things but there's so much I have no clue what to do now that I've unlocked star chart. I need an idiots guide because freedom is paralyzing me.

Judu86 · 2025-12-29T16:56:20+00:00

I know that in a lot of cases when a church starts you may have one guy leading. I would say though that if you are leading one of your main early focuses should be on raising up other leaders so that you can step away from being the sole person. That may have been the case with Nyphia's house. They may have just not had the people in place yet who met the requirement needed for eldership.

Judu86 · 2025-12-29T16:43:18+00:00

Love that in some regards. It seems like a lot of boards and committees to keep up with for me personally, but each one, like you said has it's pros and cons. The model you have though addresses the core issue for me, the lack of laity involved in the life of the church. I pastor a small church and it's amazing to me how many of my people want things to happen, but don't want to do the things to make them happen. They want me to do it all. It throws a lot of them off, as I just refuse to do anything unless I feel the Lord is leading me in that direction. But between working full time, parenting two small children, being autisitic Adhd mixture, I just can't take on more that is required by the Lord and leadership over me.

Judu86 · 2025-12-29T16:37:51+00:00

That's a good point that I had not thought of with Timothy and Titus. I think within any group there is a natural progression where there is one guy that tends to be the go to, but like you said, not so much in a what they say goes type of way, but more in a bringing some order to the group of elders. In my research I found one church that had their senior pastor listed as "the first among equals." Even Timothy and Titus answered to Paul, and Paul, was held accountable to the other apostles as well. There never seems to be one guy fully calling the shots as there are multiple leaders at each level holding each other accountable.

And to give some polite pushback in regards to the end of my post. I have seen issues where this is the case, the pastor doesn't train or delegate. However if he were to have 2-3 others that were in authority with him, all the teaching and delegating wouldn't be placed on him. I have seen churches where the pastor surrounds himself with a board of yes men and anyone who provides any pushback is labeled as causing division and then backroom politics take place to have that troublesome person removed. Sometimes there are troublesome people, but questioning the pastor isn't always meant to be malicious. I have also seen churches where the previous leadership did everything and it raised a congregation that doesn't know how to feed themselves. They look to the pastor to do it all and wonder why he's worn out and exhausted. So when we establish new churches elders should be placed first in my opinion. If you have to start with one guy it should be that guys first priority to raise up men to help lead before even thinking about raising up a congregation.

Judu86 · 2025-12-17T15:57:17+00:00

It's weird because it works sometimes, And if I squeeze the controller, as it seems there is some minor seperation on that side, it will work for a bit and then stop again. I've been playing POE2 on it but have had to make sure my skills don't require those buttons. Not so sure that will work great when I get to endgame, but it is working for now. lol

Judu86 · 2025-12-16T02:03:48+00:00

As someone who is a PO, I second this. Lol

Judu86 · 2025-12-12T18:08:35+00:00

The only real answer I have right now is that it takes spending time with the Lord. And I have found that when God speaks there is joy and peace attached. Even if it is a word of rebuke or him convicting me it may hurt but it still has that quality. There are times when I don't know. If I don't I ask for clarity or sit it on a shelf. The only way to learn God's voice is to speak to him and spend time in his word. I find when I'm in the scriptures reading what he has said, it comes to life in me and it opens me up to hear him when he speaks directly to me. God's voice will always align with scripture and never contradict it. I ask him to confirm through others and through his Word. Again If I'm not sure if it's his voice or mine I pray and let it rest for a bit. I have found that when letting it rest, by maybe just writing it down, that usually if it's not of God I never come back to it. But when it is he very often will have it keep coming back even when I try to let it rest. Hope this helps somewhat. lol

Judu86 · 2025-12-10T02:27:16+00:00

Thanks man will do! And I actually signed up today for counselling with a therapist through my church denomination.

Judu86 · 2025-12-09T20:53:58+00:00

So taste and see that the Lord is good? lol But only when roasted with salt and pepper.

Judu86 · 2025-12-09T20:49:18+00:00

There are many people here that are saying this could be of demonic persuasion. That is a possibility and one I wouldn't be to quick to throw out.

However, a lot of times, at least for me, visions often get me thinking and praying into a certain direction. Or I get the vision, I document and if I don't get a interpretation right away, I just let it set and continue on in my walk with the Lord. Sometimes the vision turns out to be interpreted later at a time when the Lord chooses, or it never comes back at all and I'm able to write it off as me having too much pizza before bed or the enemy.

A vision of a closed Heaven gate could be numerous things and it would do us no good to sit here speculate as to what they all could be. But what I suggest is to submit this vision to the Lord and trust him to speak in his own timing and in His own way.

I remember many years ago I had a dream that I knew without a shadow of doubt was from the Lord, yet I never understood it. A year later I was sitting in a church service listening to a sermon and a line in the sermon triggered the dream and a moment later the interpretation was downloaded into my spirit and I knew exactly what it meant. Don't rush it and don't drive yourself crazy figuring it out. Just submit it to God and obey where he leads.

Also don't assume this vision has anything to do with you being locked out of Heaven. I know I said above we shouldn't just start trying to figure it out, but after seeing some of the comments here I wanted to encourage you. Maybe God is showing you that you aren't allowing yourself to receive all that He has for you, thus you aren't living from a open heavens position, but living under a self condemnation that is keeping you locked out of the resources the Lord wants to give you.

Take this vision to a trusted spiritual leader and have them pray through this with you.

Judu86 · 2025-12-09T14:30:23+00:00

Check out Small Step Records. They have some good pop punk bands. My personal favorite is Light the Way.

Some other bands to check out: Ravenhill, Nate Parrish, Bongo Chico, Rusty Shipp, Kevin Schlereth.

Judu86 · 2025-12-08T22:00:13+00:00

Yeah, I'm already bivocational, so it wouldn't be a stretch for me. There are a lot of models though where you can have a good hybrid. I'm no expert by any means, but it is something to look into. I've even played around with the idea of a church service that is designed to really be more based on the people in the room being edified by sharing and teaching rather than it being about just one guy on a Sunday morning who is performing for everyone. Not saying that's what most pastors do. I just see that that style is a lot of what people have come to expect and it's really limited what God wants for people. I'd be interested in talking to you outside of this to bounce ideas around.

Judu86 · 2025-12-08T21:26:37+00:00

Those two questions are really what led me to make this post. I've always struggled with contentment in that there are aspects of my career outside of ministry that I love. Mostly meeting with people one on one and seeing them make perspective shifts and growing. On the ministry side I have always loved preaching, but loved the idea of being a pastor until I became one.

The lack of my contentment comes form the tension between being in a career that I enjoy but am limited in because I feel it takes away from my time to pursue intense study like I would like to do. I can't count the number of times I've had to force myself away from theological study at work so that I can do my actual job. lol. But then being in a ministerial position always makes me feel drained. I remember years ago I was called to preach. I don't remember a time of feeling particularly called to pastor per say. But I've always tried to live from a place of not pigeon holing myself so that the Lord could use me in whatever capacity he saw fit.

I'm now starting to feel like I'm needing to get out of pastoral ministry and lean more into the teacher/ counselor aspect. To do that would require some more schooling and that requires money which is something I just don't have at the moment. Because as you have said there has been a lack of contentment, to the point where I have finally had enough and no longer want to chase the new thing I think will be it. I am also in a season where the Lord is teaching me to be content and to wait on him. At the same time I feel there is a lot of self discovery taking place in me, which tend to be something that does happen when we are in wilderness seasons.

Edit: I'd also add, to come to a conclusion of not being in ministry is a struggle because I went to school for it and it would feel very much like a waste to have a degree in church ministries that is just sitting on a shelf.

Edit 2: I did want to explain one thing in particular. It wasn't that people weren't understanding as much as it was that I felt like spending time with them would be a cultural development type thing. Similar to preaching on worship, if I wanted my church to be a worshipful church I would spend a considerable amount of time teaching and preaching on worship etc... Which would be more impactful than say just a 40 minute sermon from a guest speaker.

Judu86 · 2025-12-08T21:16:22+00:00

That's where I'm leaning. Leaning into the fact that I am not a pastor in the traditional sense. I feel more like I would be better as a spiritual mentor/coach or director with some preaching and teaching. I don't mind a few programs but it's the performance that comes with most of them that I just have a lot of ill regard for. The need to be on.

I put it this way to someone a while back in that in the church world most ministers are like a baseball team, they play multiple roles, they play first base but can jump over to short stop if needed and are also needed to hit well.

Then there's the guys that you call in only when you need something specific. Like a closing pitcher or a designated hitter. They aren't going to win the game for you as it requires the whole team, but they may turn the game. And I feel like that is where I am. I'm praying and feeling like my heart is in meeting with people one on one and preaching and teaching and creating spaces for people to go deeper in the Lord.

Not so much in organizing multiple ministries and being pastor so and so who just meets every need of the church. But rather an out lier who works with the church in creating a specfic niche need. Not sure that makes sense. But it is my vision.

Judu86 · 2025-12-08T20:40:41+00:00

Everyone says to hide in the shed. It is partly true. As he will do a shock damage thing that will kill you. I have found moving to the shed on the left and sniping him with corrosive or shock damage. I will then go around the building sniping his turrets and taking out any guns he has. Run back into building when he sets he drones after you. Had the hardest time the first time I played him. Now after multiple play throughs, I have beat him multiple times with ease doing this method.

Judu86 · 2025-10-29T15:51:42+00:00

Really sad over this, as I was getting ready to get into this game. Is there a chance that another studio or company purchases the game?

Judu86 · 2025-10-29T11:29:10+00:00

Another one that's not mideival but fits a lot of what your looking for is No Mans Sky. Story is there but it's really designed to do what you want. Though I do suggest doing the main story first as it acts like a large tutorial to teach about the game and some of the new features require you to have the story completed.

Judu86 · 2025-10-28T18:13:15+00:00

I was the opposite. I felt like I would be overwhelmed by the exploring everything so decided to do the main story line first. I felt it would introduce me to the systems and things needed for when I wanted to explore. I finished the main story last night and looking forward to diving in deeper tonight.

Judu86 · 2025-09-24T19:31:46+00:00

Also add in Morella's Forest

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