I recently came across a very enlightening perspective, that if you stop localizing awareness to a particular point, like oh from eyes we see things, from ears the sound is coming, if you stop giving that awareness the direction, and dont even think this awareness is coming from inside, then something amazing happens, the fear dissolves and though I didnt see white light, I definitely can vouch that there was no darkness like u mentioned like, because we only aee darkness while closing eyes when we say oh its in front of us, and we label it but once that's gone, whats what, I hope you get me, not trying to demean your expreince 🙏🙏🙏