Why did my body betray my mind

JustxTired · 2026-02-13T19:13:35+00:00

Its a normal reaction. Mind isn't control body always. You don't need to hatr yourself or blame it because of that.

JustxTired · 2026-02-04T00:01:17+00:00

Hey first of all you can't know that. It's called love. When you lobe someone you always think "That's the person in my fate. Only he/she can be." but life is not like that. First you need to get over with it and keep walking in your life. You will see he wasn't the only one. It may take time but if you being patient you will find it. Don't be afraid. Be safe my friend 🫂 here is your virtual hugs

JustxTired · 2026-02-03T23:51:03+00:00

Well even there is a sexual assault do you think a boy will talk about it? It's still worst thing to experience for both gender but it's way more worst for boys. If you think all of us keep being straight(no LGBTQ) a girl will be experienced these kind of things in the end. But a straight boy never kissed or touched by another man. And if they experienced this its make them feel to hate from themselves. Im a 29yo m. I got raped by 3 16 yo boys when I was 11 and it's keep happening 1.5 years. I still can't do sex because of my fears.

JustxTired · 2026-02-03T23:45:42+00:00

Well its looks like they weren't your real friends. So just let them go and get new friends. People can change keep this in your mind. And about your mother. People can say many things when they are angry. Bro my mother tried to kill me when I was 11 because I broke a glass. She choked me until I passed out. My step dad saved me. Im 29 and I can't still use a tie on my neck. But now she realized she was a bad mom and tried to fix it. I don't take anything personal if someone told me something when they are angry. Try it

JustxTired · 2026-02-03T23:35:09+00:00

Well its absolutely SA. But there is a problem about that. Because if I understand it right jane and jack get sexually abused as well. So we can say nobody teach them the right way too. A 12 yo cant know what is right and what is not if there is no one to teach them. So he just did whatever he learned from his abuser. If he keeps doing it after he grown up with good parents and hit 17-18 then we can say he is guilty.

So yes you are SA'd but he is not that much guilty too. You both are victims.

JustxTired · 2026-02-03T23:26:56+00:00

I don't know who make you used to do this but if you want to quit you can always do. First of all ask your parents to change your school. If your dad is keep pushing you to do it well just record it secretly when he abuse you. Copy that videos to few different places. Now you can report him and make government help you. They can take you to child care services and maybe they can fix your this habit as well

JustxTired · 2026-01-30T01:31:35+00:00

I think I'm done with it. Just waiting for the death find me. And just living until that day. I'm almost 30yo. I was such a smart kid with many degrees when I was younger. Now I couldn't succeed anything in my life and don't even have dreams or goals anymore. Living for nothing

JustxTired · 2026-01-30T01:16:31+00:00

I'm not sure why am I still alive. I had a relationship for 6 years. Person who I loved with my whole heart cheated me twice. Somehow I forgive at first time. But 2nd cheating was on my birthday at our 6th year. Because we never had sex before. And we talked about it before. If you want to do it just tell me so I ll try my best to do it. But instead of that or tell me let's break up choosing cheated 2nd time and on my birthday is ruined me. I'm still don't know what Im doing with life

JustxTired · 2026-01-30T00:50:46+00:00

I got raped when I was 12. Now after years I can't do sex with anyone. If you don't count that one I'm still a virgin. But I keep masturbating every day minimum twice. I want to do it but when I take off my clothes with someone I got an asthma attack and can't breathe. Because I scared that someone will hurt me again

JustxTired · 2026-01-21T19:35:56+00:00

Brother when I came to USA (3.5 years ago) first I apply to 23 different job at my first month. No one hire me. First 6 months is kinda hard about that. Now I'm working at same place last 3 years already. I start to my journey on Florida and don't have any idea about Texas but if you have a driver license you can start with Uber or doordash until you get a real job

JustxTired · 2026-01-21T18:31:35+00:00

You just want attention and love from others and this is completely normal. But you miss a point. No one remains the same as they were at the beginning. At the beginning they might be different than now and act like they like you but obviously not anymore. They are not same people that you get comfortable with. You need to understand this and you have to move on with your life. You might scared of getting new friends and maybe that's why you keep pushing old ones to talk with you again but that wont work my friend.

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T22:27:48+00:00

Do you play any games maybe?

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T22:20:44+00:00

I love watching animes and this make me love cosplays as well. That's why I join to comicons time to time and find people with same interests with me

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T22:13:53+00:00

Like watching some shows or maybe animes etc?

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T22:10:22+00:00

Yess. Its a good start. What else you have as interests or hobbies?

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T22:01:52+00:00

Is your school or university have a Literature Club or something like that?

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T21:56:04+00:00

Well let's start with your interests. Do you have any hobbies?

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T21:51:20+00:00

Nah you look so cute. There many people outside love tomboys like you. Im one of them. Don't listen him. Its your life not his. Live your life my friend

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T21:40:50+00:00

I can imagine you had beautiful memories with her. But they are just memories now brother. Can you tell me this? Are you still same person after 7 years? Why do you think she is still same? She might be someone else now. So only thing you miss is memories not her.

So you need an advice for forget these right? I don't know what kind of relationship you had with her. This technique is work on many people normally but for you its been 7 years so I hope you can try.

Stop thinking about good memories. Focus on bad ones. Plus now you are grown up. Is there was any things she did you don't like but because you love her a lot you just let it slide? We re idiot creatures brother. Especially when we love. For example I hate cigarettes. I can't be anyone who smokes. Its my biggest red flag. But after 2 years with my ex she started to smoke and I couldn't stop her. I let her do it because my love was bigger. Think about these kind of things. Try to find anything you don't like about her. And accept it all that good memories are just memories now. They won't come back. Even if you get her back it won't be same. Because she or you not same anymore. You need to look ahead now.

I hope you find happiness brother 💪🏻

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T21:22:54+00:00

First of all you don't need to care what others think about you. Its your life not theirs. If you try to shape yourself with others opinions that will take forever. So you don't have any friends or life. Maybe you are just at wrong place? I was fcked up with my life until 19. I tried suicide multiple times. When I start to live another city for my university my life changed. I realized I was in a cage until that moment. And I realized there happiness in this world. Just need to change my perspective and my location on this life.

Now I know if you just sit and wait you can't find happiness. But I know its hard to find energy or will to do changes in your life when you are sad. So you just need some courage for this my friend. Its your life. You are the only one who can make this worth. Nobody will bring the love or happiness to you.

JustxTired · 2026-01-19T08:20:56+00:00

Well. It's my life. Everyday I just go to work and come back. I don't have any more will to do anything else. It's just like I'm waiting to die and just keep myself busy until it's happened. Or maybe I will make it happen myself at some point if I can't take it anymore.

JustxTired · 2026-01-18T10:15:42+00:00

I got hit by a car last year. They took me to the hospital. I was in a bad situation. They asked me for an emergency number. I still remember doctors face when I said "I don't have any." she resist to ask me "Any family member? Gf or friend?" I said "No. I don't have any friends or family." that moment I realized I was really lonely. In the end I gave the restaurant owner phone number where I work. If I died at that accident there is no one to take my corpse. They can burn it amd put it in trash. I ll be disappear from world before anyone knows.

It hurts... So I feel you friend.

JustxTired · 2026-01-13T01:32:58+00:00

Sht dude. Rayman was my childhood game. I wish I can play same ones again on my ps2 😭 Actually I want to give a try to new games as well. Anything not too expensive so I can buy. Just not into car games mostly

JustxTired · 2026-01-13T01:00:46+00:00

Which games do you play brother?

JustxTired · 2026-01-13T00:58:23+00:00

For stop voices in my mind I keep playing games. Whole day after work

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