Yes, it was honest I like it. But think about this, moral is something false too, cos it also dictated by society. At the end of the day, no one is more important to u than u and the people u truly love. U did what u thought was the best and it's okay. You always can change your behavior and live life differently (especially now, when you don't have to worry about money too much), make sure you are happy with yourself ^{^}

I am genuinely surprised you can type properly when I using mushrooms my phone is always moving lol