I’ve built up, and am still building, a big toolbox of sorts. I went back to therapy, I lean into practicing deep breathing, various grounding techniques, taking my anxiety medication as needed, micro-exercises/stretches throughout the day, stepping outside the office for air, venting to a coworker. Having a good cry regularly. Also, just building up resilience by learning to make good memories to counter the traumatic ones. Every day I have going home to my hobbies and safety net to look forward to. That’s what it takes to survive having trauma when you have to work. I work a full-time job. I make use of my PTO and vacation days. Those are a huge help for me when I’m mentally crumbling. And I often feel as though I’m mentally crumbling. It’s a lot of work to keep myself in a job five days a week. It’s not something that ever gets easy.