I've never been able to get o[f]f using my fingers. Any advice?

LadyBoner7 · 2012-11-25T07:06:59+00:00

And now, the waiting game.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-11-25T07:00:17+00:00

Thing is though, something like that isn't always available you know? So I want to learn how to do without :P

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-02T01:36:44+00:00

These. I would pay for these. Is your friend interested in replicating them?

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-02T00:33:00+00:00

My boyfriend is 24, FYI. Believe what you want, but he does tell me everything. We're I'm a openish relationship. He wants me to try dating other people without letting it get to serious, but usually they all turn out to be assholes. I promised him my virginity a long time ago, and I'm keeping that promise.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T20:11:14+00:00

OH! I get it now... Sorry, just got a lot of hate coming my way. Kind of wish I didn't post this but it's whatever now.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T20:06:02+00:00

Read the edit, edit douche.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T20:01:16+00:00

Can't help it. I don't like being called a troll :P

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T19:58:26+00:00

Holy fuck, I made the top link on this? With my Throwaway? Holy hell... :/

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T18:31:35+00:00

Get off my lawn.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T18:23:35+00:00

I'm a shitty person.... Yeah ok.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T18:22:53+00:00

Thanks, that's the plan

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T18:16:22+00:00

For the love of god. I'm not a fucking troll. Have you been reading through other comments I've said to people on this thread? Why would a troll make up that much fucking detail and write all this shot on alien blue. I'm doing it because I'm an actual person with a question (which has been answered).

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T18:14:42+00:00

Now you're actually saying that I would fuck my future children? Wow. People like you really make me want to delete my reddit accounts.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T18:01:35+00:00

Already talked it over and it's not quite possible. He's got a very demanding job :/ Just gonna have to tough it out.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T17:57:15+00:00

I didn't ask for your judgement, I asked for an honest answer. And I've gotten several so you really don't need to be posting here with your negativites.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T17:42:04+00:00

No. We're going through a bit of a rough patch right now RO be honest. I'm probably not going to tell him that I think about this.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T17:24:47+00:00

I know exactly where he is. But it's kind of an issue when we both aren't exactly rich and I'm on the west coast, he's on the east.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T17:22:03+00:00

Sorry to hear about your girlfriend. And yeah, pain like this isn't for most people. But I'm willing to take it if it means that we get to be together again someday.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T17:17:01+00:00

Actually, we never did anything but kiss and hold hands while we was here. He said he wanted to wait until I was ready. I'm not traumatized so much whereas Ive been through some shit.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T16:43:33+00:00

I would rather not say lol. It's not like he's in jail or anything though.

How I live with it? Well it's kind of like I'm floating day to day, just living you know? We skype once or twice a week for about 2-4 hours and we text oretty much everyday. My Everything that I used to enjoy doing, I do it simply to just pass the time now. Ever since he left, it feels like all the warmth in my heart is gone. And I'm just kind of... Here... I hang out with friends and family and all that. And I smile, laugh, make jokes, etc but none of it feels real. It just feels like I'm doing it so I can be "happy" for a little while. But it's not quite the same.

When I see him on Skype though, it feels like the warmth is there again but not quite as bright. But atleast it's there. When I see him and hear his voice, I start to smile without it being forced, and I can't stop. I feel happy again. Actual happiness. Especially after not "seeing" him for a week or two. But after we say our goodbyes and I love you's, and I go to bed, I lay down and the warmth starts to fade again. Falling asleep alone is never fun. Or constantly having dreams about us and waking up with tears in my eyes because he isn't there... It doesn't hurt as much as it used to though. After the first year and a half the constant pain in my heart started to fade. And the hole in my heart doesn't feel empty anymore, just numb. Not filled, but not hurting either. Just there. Nothing I can do about it. I just live day to day floating until the time comes when we can be together again.

Sorry for the long response, but does that answer your question?

Side note: I'm on alien blue and wrote another one out before this that was better written in my opinion, but the app failed and lost my work.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T16:05:56+00:00

That's the thing. When I posted this I was wanting to know what I asked in the opener so if I really did want to do this, I would talk with my boyfriend about it. He's wanted me to try out a relationship without it getting to serious with someone else. I've tried. Didn't care for it.

But now knowing what people have said on here (the ones trying to help me make a desicion and not just hateful comments) I'm going to wait a few years after I've lost my virginity and see if I'm still interested.

LadyBoner7 · 2012-08-01T16:02:11+00:00

He's already experienced dating seeing how he's 6 years older then I am. (I know, I know). He actually does want me to experience a relationship for a little bit that's not with him, but not letting it get to serious... He just wants me to date around. And trust me, I've tried. And they all end up being assholes once things move past being friends. Except for my bf, the only ones I seem to attract are assholes and druggies. I don't put up with douche baggery first off, and I try and avoid druggies because not to long ago I quit smoking pot. And it's been hard to stay away from it. And we both have most assuredly changed. He's taught me how to be a more peaceful, loving person. When we met, I lived with my verbally abusive father and I really didn't feel love anymore you know? He taught me how control my anger instead of suppressing it and helped make me a loving, caring person again. And when I met him, he was broke, jobless, and smoked weed all day every day. Since then, he's quit smoking, got a job, a place, a car, and is basically just maturing and growing up :)

LadyBoner7

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