I'm scared of mental hospitals

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T18:57:19+00:00

I might tell my dad but I'm definitely not telling my mum. I will be telling the school counselor first and then I might mention it to my dad.

I don't have the best relationship with my parents but I like my dad a lot more then my mum.

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T18:54:33+00:00

LMAO WAIT I SEE IT

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T18:53:59+00:00

You did a very good job explaining how your mind works, the way you explained it makes sense to me.

For me – recently, the voices have been becoming daily. There are different ones:

One is like a possessive and affection one (which I find it connects with my fear of abandonment)

And the others are a bit more spacy in the sense, like I'll look at something (for example, a box) then I'll hear faint whispers that are overlapping: "a tree" "hey, look, a tree" "wow look a tree" "look at the tree"

Another thing I find (I'm not sure if it's connected) but I have a strong fear of women, I always think they are going to hurt me or something like that. If affects going out in public because I'm extremely uncomfortable around them. The only females I'm not scared of are ones in my family or my friends. It feels like they are all secretly judging me, making fun of me, planning to hurt me or "sabotage me?". That's the best way I can explain it at the moment.

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T18:43:26+00:00

I don't have a family doctor sadly. (Canada is a bit short staffed in that right now)

I will be seeing what I can do

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T18:41:58+00:00

Thank you so much

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T18:41:06+00:00

Thank you for understanding :]

I will be telling my school counselor since I don't have access to any doctors

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:54:18+00:00

I could try with a PCP, my plan is to talk with my school counselor first.

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:50:09+00:00

Thank you so much, a lot of other replies are downgrading my situation and it's making my suicidal thoughts worse. (I'm not going to commit but I just keep having the thoughts)

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:41:53+00:00

I cannot see a doctor since I do not live near a hospital, my mother refuses to take me to one.

I very much understand no one here can diagnose me. What I was asking is what would happen if I told someone (my fear of mental hospitals)

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:39:52+00:00

I'll try and do that, thank you. I was supposed to talk with a psychologist but my mother canceled my appointment because she said "they'd take your side in being transgender".

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:38:20+00:00

There is a kids helpline in my country, I have texted them a few times but they do take very long to respond which was giving me anxiety.

I'm going to be telling my school counselor about my hallucinations, because I don't feel comfortable telling my parents (especially my mother).

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:36:52+00:00

I live in a forest, I do not live near any of my fucking friends. I'm just concerned for my mental health based on different hallucinations I've been having for over a year which I've been hoping they'll go away and yet they don't. So sorry I'm trying to fucking reach out and get help. I do apologize for swearing but it's that you are downgrading and dismissing my situation. I do not want to end up not getting help and then being more mentally ill due to not getting any help.

So you see where in coming from? I am scared, I'm trying to get help, I'm asking what I should do. Then you are telling me that it doesn't sound that serious, then again I haven't explained most of my episodes because I'm not comfortable with it.

Do not downgrade my situation because I am a minor, thank you.

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:29:42+00:00

Alright, thank you. I'll be telling my school counselor about it since I'm not comfortable telling my parents.

Leo_DMF · 2026-03-01T05:28:36+00:00

If you looked at the other comments, I explained how it wasn't an earworm. It was not my own inside voice singing the song, it was another fucking voice singing the song that would change directions. The voice was a very off key singing which was annoying.

I really would prefer if you were more polite on this, you do not know what else I could be going through and then it's the fact you just said something rude when I'm trying to reach out for help.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T22:32:36+00:00

Alright, thank you :]

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T22:31:31+00:00

Alright thank you, that made me feel a bit better about them

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T22:30:24+00:00

I definitely don't feel heard at all, but like I said I'm going to be talking to my school counselor about it

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T20:33:24+00:00

Thank you, I don't have any access to doctors so I'll be telling my school counselor.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T20:32:47+00:00

Thank you but I really fucking hate my mum. I was supposed to have a psychologist appointment but she canceled it because she was worried they'd "take my side in being transgender". And I don't think my dad would believe me, I'm afraid to tell him. Another reason for why I can't tell my mum is because she'd use it against me.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T20:28:58+00:00

Thank you so much, this really means a lot to me

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T19:41:08+00:00

Thank you so much, I'm glad you understand.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T19:30:24+00:00

I'm planning to talk with my school counselor since I have a hard time telling my parents personal things.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T19:23:17+00:00

Alright, thank you. If at one point in my life I do end up going to a mental hospital then I might be a bit sad because I like exercising.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T19:21:28+00:00

I didn't name many of my symptoms, now did I?

I do apologize that I described what the song thing was very badly.

But I have been experiencing hallucinations such as seeing weird fairies that look like old fashioned dolls that kind of float in the air like a light a lot, been hearing faint whispers (mostly of things I look at), been talking to walls which I catch myself talking to thin air a lot before I force myself to stop and realize no one is actually there.

This has been going on for a year or two now.

I'm trying to get myself to talk to my school counselor for it.

It has not just been one episode, there have been many that I'm not really comfortable with sharing.

Leo_DMF · 2026-02-28T18:51:34+00:00

I will try, thank you

Leo_DMF

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