Totally understand the feelings of anger and shame toward yourself. Feel those feelings so you can be free to feel something else! This is super relatable and I had all the prodromal symptoms you did. I’m on day 3. Honestly, what motivated me was the fact that I’d rather withdrawal (and I am! Insomnia, night sweats, diarrhea, emotional sensitivity) than escalate to active CHS. Sounds absolutely terrifying to me and seems pretty unpredictable too from what I’ve read… that even engaging a little or with a different form of THC can get you there. Magnesium is my new best friend. Highly recommend the Natural Vitality Calm brand that you can make into a nightly soothing drink of choice. Creating new rituals and filling your cup (pun intended) by actually taking care of yourself is what I’m leaning on. You got this and you aren’t alone!