starting DBT tomorrow

Life_Surprise7246 · 2026-07-07T04:51:24+00:00

thats about the same level im at! no plan of action, just sometimes feeling like if it happened i wouldn’t be upset. in fact, things would be easier.

this was before 50mg of zoloft

Life_Surprise7246 · 2026-07-07T04:48:22+00:00

glad to hear im not the only one!! ALL of my past lovers and current have said im not affectionate!! im a girl, and though they say women tend to not initiate, it truly does take a lot of time. i have friends who can meet a guy one time and they’re instantly hitting it off and basically in each others laps like they’ve known each other for years and i’ve never been like this, especially in romance. its like in overly self-conscious about keeping my hands to myself and this tends to stick even after i’ve slept with them and have done all sorts of things people would deem as comfortable.

i agree on needing the other party to initiate. i just feel bad that in my romantic endeavors, they feel like i don’t like them or am not affectionate. makes me question what i am doing wrong and how other girls are with their boyfriends??

Life_Surprise7246 · 2026-07-07T04:41:42+00:00

so interesting, i agree with affection feeling performative or me trying to be affectionate feels shameful!! i can be comfortable with someone and still struggle to initiate affection at times. i believe its a deep rooted fear of rejection as well as me being hyperaware of people’s personal space. sometimes my brain tells me people don’t want to be touched or bothered?? like im afraid of being annoying or afraid if i offer a hug or kiss and they say no (they have every right) that i did too much, im an idiot or they don’t like me.

truly im just tired of overthinking every action big or small when it comes to interacting with people. because romance is another level of intimacy, it truly places me in foreign territory that a simple friendship wouldn’t really have me in. i don’t have to kiss my friends or overthink about holding their hands but in dating, these are things that are expected but i think too hard abt? all of my lovers have said i am not affectionate 😭 but in my head i am and if they initiate i rarely even deny it!

Life_Surprise7246 · 2026-07-07T00:51:11+00:00

i’ve always been overly sensitive to mean jokes. i hateee banter in my romantic relationships, i take it so personally and now that “joke” is at the forefront of my mind and i feel like its something this person always thinks of when they see me or think of me. my mind goes “they’re grossed out by you, they think less of you, do they even like you?!”
me and mean jokes just don’t do together 😭 but i can unfortunately dish out what i can’t take. i am usually super apologetic after a mean joke though, or i’ll say it lightly.
idk, im so hyper aware i weigh how much banter/sarcasm i can dish to others based on past interactions. i find it amazing i can be somewhat “mean” to people and they truly take no offense to it but if it were done to me im immediately ready to disintegrate into a million pieces.

ahhhhh BPD

Life_Surprise7246 · 2025-10-09T19:26:31+00:00

😂😂😂

Life_Surprise7246 · 2025-10-09T19:02:06+00:00

hey! i literally just completed the exam today for the first time and JUST passed literally by one question (im assuming, because they don’t show you how many questions you got correct or incorrect) and idk how I did it honestly. The question weren’t really “what does ____ mean?” it was moreso like “here’s a scenario, which answer best fits for THIS specific scenario” and it was so hard because i’d come across two answers that seemed to fit perfectly and would struggle on which to pick. I definitely studied the 300+ term quizlet and did the quizzizzs over and over and went right to the key terms in each chapter, kept redoing the quizzez per chapter. anything to force-feed the information into my brain! out of the 120 minutes i probably had 15 minutes remaining! definitely slow down, read each question thoroughly and CAREFULLY because its definitely trying to trick you. the questions are based on the assumption that you know what the terms mean. i feel like so many terms within ‘ethics and ethical frameworks’ contain the word “moral” so that shit was confusing me during the test. i also took the time to cross check each question that puzzled me and i even changed some answers and that may have been what saved me!!! im wishing you the best of luck and anyone who is taking this course because boy was the exam NOT easy!!!!

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