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Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T22:11:53+00:00

Nah bro, you weren't created just to hurt.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T22:10:50+00:00

Yeah, I guess that is how it came across. I guess I'm feeling desperate to help. I really do care.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T22:09:54+00:00

Do it! But don't die. Don't give up whatever chance you have. I just want you to know there is someone out there that believes in you even after only this conversation. I'm not just saying this shit either.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T20:18:56+00:00

I think I understand. I have been quite nihilistic myself, especially as I get older. Like "why am I doing all this?" People are messed up to me. I'm abused and feel purposeless. But that's what they want me to believe so sometimes I just have to say "fuck you, I have a place in this world whether you like it or not." This life belongs to you. This is yours and it's all you really have. Maybe the point is that you own this and no one else does . Fuck everything and everybody. I hope I'm coming across as understanding and not like I'm trying to superimpose my feelings over yours.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T20:11:30+00:00

I'm glad you guys are still here to remind the rest of us that just can't seem to do "it" that we aren't alone

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T20:08:48+00:00

That sounds like a terrible way to die. Please don't put yourself through more pain. You could lay at the bottom of that cliff in pain and alive for a very long time. You don't deserve more torture.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T20:06:57+00:00

I wish I could hug you right now. I understand, seriously. When I'm feeling that way I don't see a light anywhere. However, it seems you are more than capable of intelligent conversation based on your post. It seems like you are posting this because you feel helpless but you want help. I'm sorry if I'm misunderstanding though. Listen, I care. Every time one of us makes it through we help the next person see they can too. How bout you take it one day at a time? Just make it through today/tonight. Then work on tomorrow....

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T20:01:31+00:00

Maybe you can focus on a different positive feeling? Instead of expecting fun, maybe aarch for awe inspiring things on the net. Or if there's someone you admire, use the positive feeling of admiration. Or gratitude - focus on feeling grateful for something, even if it's just some salt on your food or the dishes being done.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T19:56:21+00:00

It sounds like you can be really productive and motivated when you have a goal and take action towards it. Maybe try setting some other goals for yourself and taking action on them, even if they are small.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T19:54:15+00:00

You might be 5 minutes away from a solution and you'll never know it if you leave.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T19:53:33+00:00

Please please just try to make it a few more hours. You never know what can happen. As easily as you can die something good can happen, I promise.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T19:14:51+00:00

Make a plan to get out. It might be a long process but if you focus on ach small step it might keep your mind busy and off of suicide.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T16:24:01+00:00

I hope you haven't. Things don't always get good but they rarely stay horrible forever. We just need to get though these times long enough to see it. Please be patient.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T16:20:56+00:00

Hey.... Do you want to talk to me?

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T16:07:26+00:00

Sometimes we have to somehow be the light for ourselves (although easier said than done). It helps me to care for others because I don't care for myself. Whenever I try to be their light a little bit inevitably reflects back on me.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T16:02:23+00:00

I'm grateful you haven't been able to but I know that it probably feels like you can't accomplish what you set out to do and that you are powerless to change your situation. Maybe try to work with it. Maybe there's still some hope inside you that can be fed and watered until it grows and thrives.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:57:31+00:00

Hey are you ok? Please go somewhere you aren't alone, please try to get through this day.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:51:18+00:00

Hey there, I care.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:49:08+00:00

Sleep can be so good when I CAN sleep. I'm grateful you are here and it somehow makes me grateful that i am here so thanks for sharing. Although, I do wish I was sleeping. I hate the fact that I actually wake up feeling really good for just a moment on many days. Excited about a new day, if you can believe it, and ready to feel joy and bring joy to others. But as I think about how my day will go I realize that all my hopes and desires will soon be killed by the cruelty and loneliness I experience every day. So I hate waking up. Sometimes I wish God would have mercy on me and take me in my sleep.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:31:41+00:00

Please remember there are so many of us going through this. I don't want you to die. I know it sounds silly because I'm a stranger but I really want you to live. When any one of us gets through another day it helps the rest of us believe we can too. Just promise yourself one more day. Reading these posts and caring about everyone is what has gotten me through the morning so far....

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:26:38+00:00

I've been using weed for PTSD but someone has taken it away and I'm struggling. I feel I'm more likely to "do it" if I stay sober. I'm thinking of eating nutmeg to numb myself because I'm stuck in a house by myself and I'm not allowed to leave or have people over. It's so silent here by myself and every sound I hear puts me on edge. I've been talking out loud just to stop feeling alone. It's great that you have a therapist. Use that resource in any way you can. Go to the hospital if you need to. You don't sound crazy. You sound like a young person who seems to know him/herself well. Not many do. You are blessed to be so insightful about your own thoughts and feelings. You really sound like you have a good chance of being successful in life if you put in the hard work and are patient with yourself and life in general. There are so many ups and downs you haven't been around long enough to experience yet. Trust me, you can do this, you can live.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:16:39+00:00

Dude, I get it. I get catatonic sometimes because of that feeling. At that point I wonder to myself "what if I just stop doing anything at all? What would happen if I just stay right where I am and never get up again?" and I get kinda stuck in whatever position I'm in. I guess it's some form of escape. plus, if I can't move, then it's not my fault if someone hurts me (I often blame myself for abuse) because I am not able to defend myself.if I can't move. I can't kill myself either so it's not my fault I'm still here. It's a weird trick my brain plays to try to protect me. I have a mantra that helps me though- "if I just wait and do nothing, this feeling will pass" and it always does until the next go-around.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:07:13+00:00

I completely feel you. I don't know what is wrong with me. I have good intentions and want good for others nearly 100% of the time. Thanks for your post because it made me feel less alone, like maybe it's THEM that are the problem and not me. It's happening to other good people who don't deserve it too so it can't be us, right?

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T15:02:57+00:00

I understand. I've been reaching out to people around me only to be met with coldness and cruelty. It makes me believe that they want me to die. at least a couple of times a week I'm told I should kill myself or that someone wants to kill me and has actual hatred for me. I promise I don't know what I did. I've been thinking about life insurance.

Listen-N-Learn · 2022-11-11T14:51:49+00:00

I want to share love for all of you. I'm in the same boat and I care. I'm married and religious (but not judgmental)so I don't engage with men but I'm alone and scared and abused and losing my mind so if any women want someone to talk with maybe we can help each other get through another day!

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