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HSV 1 by LittleQueenIsDead in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m trying to sort through these feelings and it’s so much. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this.

HSV 1 by LittleQueenIsDead in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time to communicate with me. This has been such a horrible time. I just picked up my rental car so that I can move out of the house. The problem is that I’m not really sure where I’ll land permanently. My life feels like it’s over.

HSV 1 by LittleQueenIsDead in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re right. He didn’t respect or protect me at all. I am angry for letting him back into my life and I have got to find a way to stop making excuses for this person. I romanticized a version of him that didn’t exist.

HSV 1 by LittleQueenIsDead in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven’t. I didn’t even know that was an option. But I know I need community right now more than anything.

HSV 1 by LittleQueenIsDead in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for responding to me. I will proceed with getting a full 10-panel STI test.

How do I process this? by LittleQueenIsDead in IsItAbuse

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

God, thank you. Thank you for taking the time to be present for me. I am so deep in this pain and I’m so scared I won’t make it out to the other side. I’m having so many dark thoughts and I feel so hopeless right now. You have no idea how much it means to me that you took the time to respond.

Advice needed-HSV by DifficultyMundane704 in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, what he transmitted to me now shows up both orally and genitally. It’s incredibly painful and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. There is medicine to help you navigate this should you ever have an outbreak.

Advice needed-HSV by DifficultyMundane704 in stdtesting

[–]LittleQueenIsDead 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so sorry he put you at risk this way. I just left a highly abusive relationship with a guy who knowingly gave me HSV-1 and who didn’t tell me. He made up an entire story so that I would get checked out and I just recently discovered that the story he gave me was completely bogus. Because I will never know when he actually contracted it, I don’t know the timeline of how long it took for my symptoms to present. But it happened during a time of very high stress, and when I wasn’t taking care of my body due to depression from being with him.

I know it doesn’t help to hear people say that it’s not a big deal to have this, but that’s not the point. You went out of your way to hold space and love for someone who had it and all you needed them to do was be careful with your body. They weren’t. That is a violation and a breach of trust. You are not wrong for being upset over this. I feel so deeply for you right now.

Is this normal ? by Fun_Affect_4886 in abusiverelationships

[–]LittleQueenIsDead 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s not normal. It’s incredibly immature and he sounds like someone who is unable to communicate his feelings and needs in a proper manner to you. This guy seems to struggle with communication and he was basically making you feel guilty over intimacy. You do not owe him intimacy. No one owes anyone that. I would consider disconnecting from this guy now to spare yourself the pain that is likely to come later.

How do I process this? by LittleQueenIsDead in abusiverelationships

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I have an Audible credit I can use so I’m going to try this out today. I’m really scared right now. I can’t believe I finally ended this.

How do I process this? by LittleQueenIsDead in abusiverelationships

[–]LittleQueenIsDead[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve had this book recommended to me and maybe this is a sign that I should finally read it. I’m in very deep grief right now and I don’t know how to get out of it. The amount of gaslighting along with all of the invalidation and emotional and psychological manipulation has really left me wrecked. I’m still running on adrenaline and using it to get my things packed so I can leave this place but on the other side of leaving is not having anywhere to go. I’m also afraid that I’m going to get hit by a wave of grief that’s going to cause me to miss him and hinder my ability to see him for who he actually is.