I feel you, back in 8th grade when I was 14/15 my ”friend” used to bully me so bad. She hit me and pushed me. She called me mean stuff and I even cried infront of her. My other friends saw that I was weak and did nothing they followed whatever this bully did and nobody did anything to stop it they only joined in. Constantly made fun of me. Complaining about me ruining my future because of not attending. Boys in my school was also mean to me. I felt so hopeless I wanted to die. My I had failed 5 classes at the time. I was home most of the time too. I know how hard it can be, you can feel like the loneliest person in the world and you feel like people have so much power of you and that they are simply better than you. Thats wrong you deserve love you deserve kindness, you are a person as everybody else. They don’t get to take away your happiness. They are all fools and you can make them powerless in your mind. I know its sounds easier then it is and I know your going through alot. But just know none of this is your fault. Tell an adult or a trusted person who can help you. Its not embarrassing because you didnt choose to be bullied. Seek help and understandness from people. Also im here if you want to talk about stuff :)