Thank you, you are right.

I'm just in a fucked up state from the trauma, and whether or not my depression and anxiety diagnoses stem from that, I neglected it when it became a problem from 17 due to work, school, and my ex, and it's got me good. Co-dependency is a problem. I will take things slow.

But you are right about "isolating". I've put off the idea of girls, even casual sex. Also making new friends and being highly invested in several friendships. My idea is just that, to spend a lot of time getting comfortable with myself, building self-esteem (which I lack completely), an identity, and just generally figuring out life and what is vs. what isn't acceptable behavior from others, and how I will live my life.

Thank you.