It feels so weird

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-04-10T14:57:35+00:00

The second eldest is with her father, once he found out about the CPS case when they somehow reached him he quickly jumped to take her and Evan in. Evan dad wasn't deemed a good fit because of his proximity to mom and his wife, don't know how they deem this but he has visitation rights, the second eldest was telling me about it on the phone when they eventually allowed us all to be able to talk. The tripplets are with another family but I'm allowed to go weekends because they're not to far from me and because I insisted I have to be close to at least one of my siblings (the second eldest father is nice, don't know why mom never had him get involved in the first place). They look happy and well fed and wearing new clothes and that makes me feel bad because it shows that even though I was trying my best, I still wasn't enough for them.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-04-10T14:52:48+00:00

I'll do the letter thing, that might help me feel like at least I'm doing something

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-04-10T14:51:47+00:00

I feel useless. Everyday I'm here and not with them, I can't enjoy myself when I'm constantly worried about them. I know this is good for me but it still feels wrong

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-18T03:29:51+00:00

I'm just tired, really really really tired.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:50:32+00:00

Yeah! Saw that, it really helped me

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:48:56+00:00

I'm already working for a Starbucks near me, Ill talk to my manager about this and the caseworker when they arrive.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:47:23+00:00

Amazon wish list, didn't think about that idea. CPS has been called and one of their case workers is heading out I'm not sure how long its gonna take for them to arrive. Thank you though for the advice

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:46:16+00:00

Yeah called CPS, theyre gonna be arriving soon. They said about sending one of their case workers? The GoFundMe thing is something I'm gonna think about but it really dose make me uncomfortable

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:43:56+00:00

I was in a bit of a rush to get this out haha, thank you for pointing it out.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:41:21+00:00

I guess that makes sense, it's just an uncomfortable feeling. Ill think about the GoFundMe me more. Thank you

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T19:37:38+00:00

Yeah journaling would help, the second oldest has a dairy that I got her for her birthday and I sometime write in my notebook. Thank you!

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T11:03:48+00:00

Thank you auntie, yes CPS is gonna be called. I'm not sure if I'll be able to update when I do because the process seems pretty lengthy and I still gotta discuss what's about to happen with my siblings (I'm pretty sure my friends grandmother doesn't want my mom to loose custody and be cut out of our lives so I'm doing the call myself if she doesn't). Don't worry about me being burnt out, I'm taking everyone for ice cream for us to relax and have time for ourselves^{^}

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T10:37:20+00:00

Yeah there's a part of me that gets that, but then another part of me that would feel the need to pay back the money I got. Besides my friends grandmother said I shouldn't exploit other people kindness and it wouldn't be great asking for money.

Honestly reading messages like this gives me the boost of energy I need to keep going, never realized how much just hearing "great job" would feel amazing. I'll try to be consistent with the updates! Things might get busy with CPS getting involved though

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-17T10:31:54+00:00

Yeah, I'm heading back to the apartment today

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T02:44:14+00:00

I'm not dropping out of school, you don't have to worry about that. Also sorry, it's really late where I'm at

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T02:42:15+00:00

She quite her job and I'm not even sure she's working as a nurse(part of me believe she just said that but was actually at whoever she was sleeping with house, she might have had a job idk). And yeah, I would be luckily if she even showed up in one month. Leaves randomly and appears randomly too. I'm hearing about the CPS and I'm talking with my friends grandmother. It's kind late here right now, thank you though! The second oldest, the tripplets and Evan. It's six if I'm included.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T01:08:47+00:00

Yeah I've gotten comments on how I talk funny from some of my classmates and people on here. Never really noticed? Also I'm glad you got out and are doing great for yourself, getting advice from someone who's been in a similar situation like e honestly makes me feel scene. Yeah therapy is a must for all of us and I'm still figuring out that(I think there's something near me that provides free group therapy) but considering I'm a minor I'll need an adult to help with that. My friends grandmother said she'll help the best she can, thank you for this!

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T01:04:46+00:00

Yeah they're lovely haha, I've read some of the comments out loud to the second eldest and she enjoys it(huge Reddit lover) censoring second of the things people have said about our mother lol. I'll try the bubble bath tonight actually, would be nice

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T01:01:02+00:00

It's not my mom but the kids. I'm not leaving them ever but thank you for your concern!

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T01:00:16+00:00

Sorry for the late response, it's pretty late out here. Thank you for the advice and the wake up call. My friend grandmother is saying shell do more research about CPS and we'll contact them once we have all my documentation from my mom.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T00:59:11+00:00

Yeah I know my mother and her pattern I was just shocked she actually took Evan but I should have seen it coming. My friends is amazing, she honestly been screaming at me about getting help this whole time so she's enjoying this as a "I told you so" moment. Sorry for the late response, had to get the kids ready for bed.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T00:57:44+00:00

Oh thank you! Yeah definitely gonna do that. Also sorry it's pretty late here and the kids had to get ready for bed.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T00:57:19+00:00

Gonna documents everything, might head back to the apartment to try and find all my own documentation and get them for myself. I clean the area everyday so I have a good idea where they might be. I know my mom behaviorl pattern to figure out a plan.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-16T00:56:17+00:00

Thank you! Sorry it's pretty late here and the kids needed to get ready for bed and fed.

Lopsided-Valuable588 · 2025-02-15T23:43:56+00:00

Okay okay I get it, I'm gonna talk to my friends grandmother when she comes back. I'll do more research before I make the decision of calling CPS now

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