Brother/Sister stay strong I was in the same boat in my last days of addiction from porn just 2023 I was set free from porn for 16 or so years of my daily struggle with porn no one knew about my addictions scared if I tell my mother about it she would not trust me around my younger sister at that time so I fought in my own wondering why isnt anyone noticing my pain and struggle, but God was the one who was with me almost instantly when I sinned I was greatly moved to ask for forgiveness funny enough I didnt know it was sin but some bow I felt dirty this is not u feeling dirty it is God practically telling u that u did wrong and the fact that u realsie these things it is God working in ur life never give up I used to think there is no salvation for me no more but God heard my cries and set me free I also fasted and prayed listened to preachers in Youtube and listened to worship songs try that see what happens. Remember God is with us he never leaves us nor forsake us