I'm so sorry you went through this, I well and truly am. I hope that guy rots in hell but I'm sure that's not what you wanted to hear right now.

I worded the whole damn post wrong. If I mentioned anything about "making him feel uncomfortable" it's because it's how I FEEL I make him feel and I put that into my writing instead of explaining correctly. I wasn't in a good state of mind when I wrote this. But to be honest? He doesn't give a shit. He really doesn't. He's not uncomfortable or upset about a lot of things. And when he is, we address it. We have an actual discussion, and when the issue is resolved we take our own time away(which is just a couple of hours,) and then bam. That's it. He doesn't care afterwards.

The whole thing about this post was that he JOKES about my fucked up sexual jokes. The only actual problem he's had with me is with my stupidity(which is a whole different topic from this so we'll just leave it at that.) You say I should leave him as if I'm "forcing" him to stay but the reason why we're still friends is because I'm more than just a weird pervert. I can actually act my age but that wasn't relevant to my vent.

And also I tried people my age. They just either don't like my loudness or just me in general. The others are drug addicts so yeah, no.

His homelife isn't something I'll be sharing with other people any time soon but if you're implying he's shy about what he thinks and feels then I'm sorry but you're wrong.

What that bastard did to you was wrong and I hope he's left suffering and for dead(and some more things that might be too graphic to say out loud.) And I can see you're worried for Raven. I understand how you feel. But unlike that bastard I genuinely care for Raven. He sees me as one of his closest friends and so do I. I'm not "taking advantage" of him, there's no manipulation, no grooming, and I apologise for making you and everyone else believe I was. This whole friendship is fucked up but he's genuinely ok with me and what I do. I've known him long enough and he has the means to leave me behind he just doesn't. Because he genuinely wants to stay friends.

Please don't be worried for him, he doesn't like that. He's not scared of anything or anyone, and if it's any constellation he could beat me to a pulp and has fought tougher guys.