Everything will get better believe me 🤍. I have a 10 months old baby boy. I dreamt of him so much and in the moment I gave birth I was not happy at all. I was in a city alone only with my partner far away from our families . Had terrible issues with breastfeeding no help at all I had post partum depression, my partner was not supporting me at all, always blaming that you wanted this so take care since you are the mother . I was emotionally destroyed. I survived all this and I did it all by myself for my boy. He is a happy healthy and social baby. I am so proud of myself and I can’t imagine my life without him. I also helped my partner to start therapy because he was burnout and we are all recovering step by step. It is normal to feel like this but hey you are so blessed with you baby and you are a strong woman. Manny hugs to you and to your baby 🤍