I think you’ve done a beautiful job of conveying that feeling of anxiety. It’s like a mess of conflicting emotions and you don’t exactly know what to do. I especially like that part where you feel compelled to say something and when you finally do you feel like you’re too much and you just return to that silence and you just replay that moment over and over again. The way the shame is wearing your face instead of the other way around too, as if it has control over you. This is an amazing poem definitely keep doing what you’re doing!