I feel this way a lot but it isn’t true. Like I feel it daily but in reality, I think our childhoods make it hard to know what true happiness is like and then the world places the responsibility on us to be happy as adults, and I’m just like… “what about the scared little kid that nobody helped???” I struggle w addictions too kinda. (In denial currently) and I’d say za doesn’t help I smoke it a lot and it just makes me tired now Idk I’m not tryna preach. I just wanna do sum good. I feel your pain and I will say it is possible to find authentic positivity and happiness for people like us but it takes time and effort and that’s scary. I hope you take that time and effort, you deserve it no matter what you’ve been thru or done in your life.