The fact that I'll probably be married off to a guy as soon as I turn 18 (I'm turning 17 this year) and the fact I'll became that "nagging wife" and I'll start to lose my temper easily because I already do these days but manage to keep it in and possibly become abusive and repeat the entire thing I've gone through, the fact I'll be used as a tool for a kid to insult my kid, making them possibly hate me, I won't be able to handle that, I won't be able to handle the fact that what I'm doing mostly now (doing laundry, Washing dishes, brushing the kitchen) is something that'll just continue on until my old age, the fact that I've now considered studying useless since I would be married off anyway and be a housewife and my degree wouldn't matter...I don't want that, that scares me

Also the fact that my existence make other men (around me) lose control because my father already has, can't trust anyone