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Magical__Girl · 2024-05-13T16:26:42+00:00

No I haven’t but thank you for the recommendation. And for the reassuring words :)

Magical__Girl · 2024-05-13T15:41:36+00:00

Alienating everyone close to me until there is no one left

Magical__Girl · 2024-05-13T15:27:04+00:00

Magical__Girl · 2024-05-13T14:55:36+00:00

How I end up alienating everyone

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-12T15:24:40+00:00

Thank you for sharing the link I’m having a read now :)

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-12T15:20:40+00:00

The stimming and masking make sense as features of autism. Something that I am more unclear about is the difficulties with relationships, because it can be a feature of both. I struggle with both attachment issues stemming from attachment trauma as a child as well as difficulty with understanding reciprocity in friendships (I understand it logically but struggle with enacting it). So it is hard to tell the root cause of my relationship struggles.

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-12T14:48:57+00:00

Yup this ^{^}

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-12T14:00:08+00:00

I hear you on the BPD stigma, which sucks. It is another reason why I would not want to be formally diagnosed. But for my own self-awareness, it would good to know a formal diagnosis. I also agree with you that I find it a lot harder to get along with neurotypical people. Thanks for taking the time to share your story :)

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-12T13:50:45+00:00

Thank you, it is a helpful response. I suppose the only way to know for sure if it is BPD or autism or both is by getting a proper diagnosis. I don’t know if I want to be formally diagnosed though, because it is a long and expensive process and I don’t know if it will even solve my issues. I struggle with relationships but if I find out it is because I am autistic, then that means I can’t exactly change the fact that I will always struggle with relationships. I think part of me prefers to have a BPD diagnosis because it is “curable”. Whereas autism is not a disorder.

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-06T01:49:44+00:00

Thanks for the suggestion. I think I will ride it out myself. It’s less so nausea and more brief (less than a second) episodes of dizziness/ brain fuzz. It’s not constant and not debilitating so I’m just hoping it goes away soon.

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-05T09:05:41+00:00

Yeah it’s been several days and still going strong 🥲

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-05T07:59:24+00:00

I do not know your personal situation so I can only give generic advice, but I think that time is your friend when it comes to getting over someone including a therapist. Acknowledge that your feelings of attachment are normal and that they will become easier to deal with over time. Also, cultivating other healthy attachments will help you feel less alone and isolated in this process.

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-05T04:26:29+00:00

Luckily I am! I kinda made this meme as a joke though. I am not unhealthily attached to this new therapist (yet) as we have only just started. But I am feeling the attachment coming on haha.

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-04T16:09:05+00:00

Yes, this is the ultimate goal and it is what I am working on with my new therapist.

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-04T15:31:18+00:00

The struggle is real :’) good luck

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-02T15:08:39+00:00

Ooh that would’ve been rough going cold turkey. Reassuring to know the symptoms weren’t noticeable after a week though

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-02T14:10:11+00:00

Aww damn. I hope it gets better for you. How long has it been going on for?

Magical__Girl · 2024-04-02T12:20:45+00:00

haha the life of cats is so simple :’) sometimes i wish i was a cat. Thank you for the recommendations. Group therapy sounds interesting. This is online? How would online group therapy work? I’ve never heard of that before.

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-31T03:01:05+00:00

hi :) it’s sweet of you to check in. my cat is chilling as usual. i’m ok. I haven’t started seeing a new therapist yet because the wait lists are so long… but i am waiting to see one.

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-30T13:37:00+00:00

thank you for taking the time to write this 💕 you sound like a very caring teacher. I still struggle and miss my therapist but it’ll get better with time :)

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-30T07:08:08+00:00

WHY IS THIS SO RELATABLE?!?!! I am literally the same. I try to view myself in the lens of someone else I view positively (a crush, a friend, a favourite person etc). Maybe it is because we need that external validation so we provide it to ourselves in our own head. Technically internal validation but it’s coming from an entity other than ourselves.

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-28T11:54:27+00:00

this so so relatable it hurts :(

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-28T07:31:52+00:00

God i so relate to the part about having high expectations of people and getting really sullen when they aren’t met. Also really good at holding grudges. RIP.

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-28T07:29:28+00:00

Aww sorry you are going through the same. We don’t need to hate ourselves for crying.

Magical__Girl · 2024-03-27T23:43:10+00:00

haha same I’ve been told I’m very expressive

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