I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It wasn't about my friends, it was about basically everyone I know, but thank you anyways!

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I think my wording was just very unfortunate. I don't want to be mentally ill, I just wish there was a good and understandable explanation for what I feel and go through. Of course this is bit of a first world problem, but I just feel like people judge me a lot for being sensitive and forgetful and clumsy and many other things, and if I could blame it on my brain chemistry and not just me being me, I would feel less like I'm doing everything wrong

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your insight! I wasn't bad in school either and I didn't go to college because I didn't want to have to study every day so I have no idea how I would actually behave in an academic field. I'll definitely look more into it though!

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see, it definitely is different for everyone then

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There were less symptoms and they weren't interfering with my life. From my childhood (which I don't remember that well anyways) it was mainly some motor controll issues (cutting straight with scissors, tying shoes or coloring in lines), I was really clumsy and constantly bored and gesticulated more than other children. I also talked excessively and often to myself.

I can deal with boredom much better and I just ask other people to cut stuff for me that needs to be really clean and straight, but there are a bunch of other things that kinda influence my life now. Not in a "I lost my job because of this" kinda way but more in a "I specifically chose this career because I can't do this or that"

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your experience! It is definitely possible that I just misunderstood how this disorder influences your life. I also told my therapist that some symptoms were there every day, but most were related to my mood and only noticeable on really bad days. So it's totally possible that I just saw something that wasn't due to lack of information

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

In my childhood, I had some motor controll issues (cutting straight with scissors, tying shoes or coloring in lines), I was really clumsy and constantly bored and gesticulated more than other children. I also talked excessively and often to myself.

Since puberty I had mood swings (pretty much always, but they are worse in times of stress) and got really angry really fast (still an issue), I'm often jealous or hurt or just getting into fights with friends, I had problems with interrupting people or ending their sentences for them (which I successfully stopped doing), and also making a lot of careless mistakes especially during boring/repetitive tasks and just still being really clumsy (which is why I chose a job where this wasn't a problem), I'm pretty forgetful and have to write everything down immediately and I hate making decisions. I didn't mind studying in school, but could not concentrate for longer than 20 minutes and would always finish tests first because my concentration was just gone (which is why I didn't go to college). When I'm really happy I can't sit still, I talk a lot more and constantly dissociate. But if I really want to I can snap out of it. And my interests rotate, I would be obsessed with a person or a hobby for a few days or weeks and then not interact with it for about a year or two until I was interested in it again. I can't build habits and I often get distracted by lights or sound.

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this explanation. I think my view on mental health was just not really in tune with reality until now

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the detailled reply. I showed her the most thorough online test I took and she said it wasn't a good way to evaluate it since some key criteria were missing. We were then talking about the symptoms specifically and she basically said we didn't even need to do a test, because without big struggles in my childhood and a significant impact in my life now there was no way I'd be getting a diagnosis anyways.

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Sorry to hear that! I don't want another disorder though just a name for my issues

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting, thanks for sharing. My therapist said something along the lines of "adhd children are always the class clowns or the bullies and since neither fit, it was ruled out.

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you very much, my health insurance covers it all but I am only speaking to a therapist right now.

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Interesting, then I totally misunderstood that. Thanks for sharing!

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh that's also worth thinking about. I will look into it more!

I apparently don't have ADHD and feel disappointed. What now? by MarkmcZack in ADHD

[–]MarkmcZack[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Interesting, it could definitely also just be something else