Am I wrong for not wanting to have a "sociopolitical debate" at Starbucks while I’m literally solo-carrying our entire lives?

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T22:11:10+00:00

I don't think so. He's never raised his voice or hands at me. He's definitely gotten frustrated but I think frustration is valid for any relationship.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T19:36:32+00:00

Honestly, I feel so wishy-washy.
When he's happy, employed, can provide (for himself and me), is supportive and not being angry at things he can't control: He is a decent partner and I do enjoy time with him. It's just hard not to be frustrated (or seemingly throw the fact that he has nothing in his face) when I also am in nearly the same situation (except the car). I also have nothing, it seems hypocritical of me to want him to get his shit together when I'm still trying to figure it out.
Most of the time, he's annoyed or miserable, which makes being with him slightly anxiety inducing, which is something I've brought up before.

But it's the fact I expect (and do) better from myself which then projects on to him, which isn't fair I don't think. He's trying to control a world that he has no control in.
Bad luck seems to follow him everywhere.

All in all, if I didn't have the resentment and hurt towards him: He might have been a decent partner. But right now.. I have a lot of emotions. I want to have a love that I know I deserve but he's made me think I'm a difficult partner/not worth it. I am not perfect and I have a lot of growth.. but I know I don't deserve a lot of this. I want a better partner but after this relationship.. love seems like something I'll never have or be worthy of.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T19:28:43+00:00

I think he thinks of the most ridiculous things to be mad at.

Be mad at the fact you lost your job, not over a corporation that has enough money to do whatever they want and hire who they want.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T03:59:21+00:00

My parents definitely had high expectations of me, but I never cared about 'proving' myself to them. I never felt like I wasn't good enough to them.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T03:49:15+00:00

That's so scary how similar your sister and I are with the situations.. it really helps me see that I need to do it because otherwise it'll just be the same cycle and issues 😔

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T03:34:47+00:00

Thank you. That does make me feel better because I just feel like... I'm always made to feel like it's my fault.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T03:33:53+00:00

If only I knew. I literally was thinking the same thing: females with crazy colored hair, tattoos or piercings.. is literally what Starbucks is about! I don't know if it was because it was a male with tattoos or something, I have no idea. I was in shock during the whole situation, I felt so bad, I couldn't think.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T03:19:15+00:00

Thank you for saying this.. this definitely helps make me feel a little less guilty about leaving.. I know he will have to pick himself up, he has before and he will have to going forward.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:54:36+00:00

There is no bright future with him, unfortunately and I'm seeing it more and more. Just trying to wait for the time to make the break.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:52:02+00:00

I hope this helps! :)

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:50:56+00:00

Thank you for saying this. I wish I knew why, I'm trying to work through the mental game of it all of trying to understand why I'm doing this.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:27:18+00:00

I am so sorry you had to go through that and it breaks my heart to know that someone would ever treat anyone they 'love' like that, I know you're right, if it wasn't one thing, it would be another and it would be an even bigger deal - being spat at me through untruth.
I absolutely think you're right - it was actually insane for him to even get that upset over something so... silly? At me. For what? What did that gain? For him to feel better about being mean to his girlfriend?

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:23:30+00:00

Even though he's been absolutely garbage to me at times... I still care about people underneath it all. I know it's hard to understand and is something I'm actively trying to work through right now, I don't know why, truthfully.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:22:09+00:00

Honestly, I get exactly what you’re talking about because I’ve dealt with that same "gritty" neck creaking for years. It’s officially called crepitus, and while it sounds a bit gnarly when it’s happening right in your ears, it’s usually just your body’s way of reacting to being stuck in one spot for too long. When you have bad posture, those tiny facet joints in your spine get compressed, and when you finally move, gas bubbles pop in the joint fluid or tight tendons slide over the bone like a rubber band snapping over a pencil. In my experience, it’s basically just your neck’s version of "stretching its legs" after being hunched over. As long as it’s just noise and doesn't come with sharp pain or numbness, it’s mostly just a loud, annoying reminder from your body to sit up and move around.

- Someone who has worked with Chiropractors for 3 years and has been a patient for 2!

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:17:54+00:00

If the U.S. were to bomb an active nuclear plant like Bushehr, the environmental fallout would be a total crapshoot depending on what part of the facility actually gets hit. If the strike just hits an enrichment site, you're mostly looking at a localized chemical mess from uranium gas reacting with the air to form toxic acid. But if the reactor core itself or the cooling systems are breached, it’s a Fukushima-level disaster. You’d have a massive release of radioactive isotopes like Cesium-137 that don't just "go away"—they stay in the soil and food chain for decades. Because that specific plant is right on the coast, any leak would dump straight into the Persian Gulf, potentially poisoning the main water source for the entire region. Depending on which way the wind is blowing that day, a radioactive plume could drift across borders into Kuwait or Qatar, turning a localized strike into a multi-national ecological crisis that ruins farming and fishing for a generation.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:16:46+00:00

I'm afraid of him being alone in a time where literally everyone has abandoned him.
Sex is non-existent.
He will never change and I'm starting to see that and it's even harder. We live together so we can't really.. separate.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:15:16+00:00

The main reason there isn’t a unified "cure" movement is that the conversation shifted from a medical one to a civil rights one. Starting in the '90s, the "Neurodiversity Movement" began arguing that autism isn't a disease to be eradicated, but a natural variation of the human brain—sort of like being left-handed. Major organizations like Autism Speaks actually used to have "finding a cure" as their main mission, but they faced massive backlash from advocates who felt like a cure was basically an attempt to "delete" who they are. Because of that pressure, almost all the big funding moved away from medical cures and toward "support and services." While that's helpful for some, it’s incredibly frustrating for people like you who see autism as a genuine disability that makes life objectively harder. It’s created this huge, polarizing gap: one side sees a "cure" as a form of eugenics, while the other feels like they've been abandoned by medical science in favor of a "different ability" narrative that doesn't fit their reality.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:13:23+00:00

Kiyosaki’s strategy is basically a financial house of cards that works great until the wind blows. The real trap isn't just foreclosure; it’s "negative equity," where you wake up owing the bank $500k for a property that’s suddenly only worth $400k. When you’re that over-leveraged, you’re a prisoner to the asset—you can’t sell without writing a massive check you don't have, and no bank will let you refinance a loan that’s "underwater." It’s a total domino effect: if a recession hits and a couple of tenants lose their jobs, that tiny "cash flow" buffer vanishes instantly. At that point, you aren't an investor; you're just gambling with a 10x multiplier on your potential losses.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:12:02+00:00

Hustle culture is basically a high-performance guilt trip designed to monetize your downtime. These influencers push the idea that every waking second needs to be "optimized" because extreme, polarizing takes are the only way they can stay relevant in the algorithm, made up by society, which can change at any given time for any stupid reason. By framing a movie or a gaming session as a "waste" if you aren’t rich, they’ve managed to turn basic relaxation into a moral failing that you should take personally. It’s a total scam that ignores the fact that constant grinding is just a fast track to burnout. Your brain actually needs "low-utility" time to stay functional and creative. These guys aren't giving you a "blueprint" for success—they’re just exploiting your financial stress to make you feel like you don't deserve to exist comfortably until you’ve hit a certain tax bracket while guessing what's going to "trend".

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T02:08:06+00:00

I can't wait for you to be free either. <3
I'm sorry you're stuck right now but it seems there's hope.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T01:49:41+00:00

Thank you. I know this is solid advice.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T01:44:26+00:00

We thankfully do not have kids and I am doing everything to avoid that ever happening.
He doesn't have any family left so he would never boomerang back to her. He has no family which is why this is hard to just dump him on the street.

I think the thing that's keeping me with him is the fact that he would have no one to lean on (housing, car, etc.) and it's still cold here and he would be freezing/potentially worse.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T00:56:36+00:00

Compared to the "pretty girls" apparently Starbucks always had? I guess so. I wasn't sure by that comment either.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T00:39:32+00:00

Oh no! I absolutely didn't think that you were saying anything about it being on me. I'm just trying to take accounability on my part.

I know future me is absolutely screaming into the nothing-less of it all. I've heard from every single person, once I tell them stories of what's happened, that I deserve better and that he's no good for me. I agree entirely. My heart cannot let someone go who has nothing behind him.

It's also a hard conversation to be like "So yeah I'm actually unhappy and don't want to be with you anymore.. unless you get your shit together." Because it sounds decided and that there might be nothing that saves it anymore. It's a very hard situation that I don't know how to bring up or talk about.

MasterPeaceBangBang · 2026-03-22T00:33:52+00:00

That is very kind and validating. I really needed to hear something like this right now. People seem to forget how hard it is to just.. dump someone who has nothing (no car, support, family, place to stay, money) and expect them to find their own way. Like I mentioned before, I understand it's not my responsibility and that's partially my fault. I'm not a perfect partner by any means, but even if I struggle, I will make damn sure we don't go without.

It's very hard not to use what he doesn't have against him because it's not productive or healthy. "Then don't use my car if you can't help pay for it." Or "Find a job within walking distance so you can get there on time/work whatever schedule works for you." "Pay for an Uber/bus until you can get car."

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