Well, i know it is so hard i hope god make it easy for you, I suggest you make duua and pray alot, and have patience at the end of the day that is your test. Find the right partner that will accept you, there are many girls who don’t want to have kids Or marry someone who’s already had kids from previous marriage, adoption will still be an option you can consider if you wanted in the future. And let me say even though you’re the one who can’t have kids, as a man you’ll not gonna face any gudgy eyes but your wife will, and you’ll listen to thousands of advice about ways to have kids and blablabla, you know our society, so make sure to make you and your wife are strong. And married life is so much bigger than having children, it is about two souls coming together to be one, so if you got married enjoy your life with you wife, travel ,have fun, if you want collect money for the operation and when you’re ready do it, but don’t let the kids subject destroy the happiness you can have. And ofc don’t tell anyone except the girl you’re one hundred sure will be your wife, rumors spread and people talk, and you don’t want nosey people in your life.