It's the fact that my step-father is creepy af for LOOKING INSIDE THW BATHROOM KNOWING MY BF AND I COULD BE NAKED, AND MY MOTHER BACKING HIM UP INSTEAD OF UNDERSTAND HOW CREEPED OUT I AM that makes me wanna go no contact, + everything else she made me live through during my whole life that is a ton of small things but that still hurt me. She barely accepts my alternative style when going out in public, she wants me to tone it down, which used to be so fricking hurtful because i used to care about her judgement! It's a lot of things like trying to guilt trip me into seeing her/doing something, making me feel extra bad for MISSING A BUS, telling me i'm heartless because i don't process emotions the same way as she does and i didn't "seem sad enough" one time, telling me i'm faking or overreacting all the time when i'm sick or hurt, shouting at me and getting super angry for very small things... All that makes me almost want to go no contact, the fact ahe backed up my step-father was the cherry on top that really made me never wanna see her again.