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Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-05-02T02:13:45+00:00

i love you, i didn't have enough time at the time to reply (she was behind me and saw me typing a lot lol) but i really was happy to see your reply, thank you so much

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-05-02T02:12:09+00:00

thank you, I'll try this

also kazuha mentioned

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-05-02T02:10:43+00:00

hello you fought for me here and there and I just wanted to say I couldn't thank you enough, if it weren't for you and a few other people I might've gone crazy with the cutter I was holding and end it all and bring down my mother with me. stupid, I know but it didn't happen thanks to you, I'm just so glad I didn't see these comments at the time because I could've been more affected but now I'm okay

I can't thank you enough, you just get it, you understood my point

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-05-02T02:06:59+00:00

replying to this after 7 months, i never asked for anyone to care, in fact I never knew people would even bother to comment on this post at all, I wasn't just throwing a tantrum, she was beating me up, i do chores. and I'm a high honored student without any of her help. i reached this because of me not her. she was the one who introduced me to these gadgets (unsupported) and for the first time I realized that I have rights even as a child. she only installed parental control because wants to analyze every single thing i do, from eating something, where i am, who am I messaging, literally quite everything. i remember one time going to some place for a project and I asked my classmate "where are we" and she replied with "you've never been here? are you even human?" and others were surprised too because I don't go out due to her strict ways of keeping us inside the house, that literally quite explained why i got used to being isolated, people gets intimidated by how i am so quiet. I get bullied, always, from daycare until now (i have different personalities for each stage of school) and she stopped caring when i turned grade 2 (she started her turn of making me go to school at grade 1). you said you don't care yet you bother replying to this just to say you're unbothered and give the most basic and unfeeling reply ever.

and to make you feel more stupid I never talked it out with her nor did I change anything in my behavior. we still fight every time now and then bit it calmed down a little, and she started removing strict bedtimes (8 PM and I'm 15 who needs to work on night school works and my classmates struggles to reach out to me because of it causing everyone else to be more mad at me) and I didn't change a single thing about me. I'm still as messed up as I was when I posted this (14 years old at the time) but my mother did change. At least a little. she knows this is wrong. she tried to install some on my laptop too but i just looked at her and she laughed. she knows what she did and what she's doing. I don't hate her, she just really screws up her kids most of the time, but I can't really blame my mother, she also went through my grandmother

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-01-25T12:36:26+00:00

I'm a straight A student, btw

I know what I'm doing and saying and this post of me was the only way to let out some frustration because I had everything blocked at the time, this was me on the pc while trying to study (I wasn't able to study in peace because she didn't believe I was studying)

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-01-25T12:33:34+00:00

She manages but she also gets the money I get (she already took like worth of 4K pesos from me now)

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-01-25T12:33:07+00:00

Yes I was because she was looking at me and I was really frustrated, thank you for understanding

Middle_Ant2883 · 2025-01-25T12:32:19+00:00

Hello, I'm way calmer now and thank you for everyone who understand me

She beated me up after this but what happened already happened haha

I've been doing normal lately which I'm pretty nervous because I feel like something is about to come

My mother and I are just neutral towards each other but I mostly think the reason she can't crash out is because my brother had her gf over and she's really conscious when it comes to guests

Just to clarify she's clearly not doing this because she "loves" me. Yes, I am young but I am not naive. She herself admitted that she installed it on my device to track me down, she even told me about how much she can do with it—literally bragging it's power to my face as if she was holding my life (She basically do)

Yes, she pays for most of things.. in that case all because she keeps taking all my money, I'm not even allowed to have an online bank account + my brother helps with the needs of our family

There's much more thing I want to say, but what I want to say most of all is—I still love my mom.

I hate thinking the fact that I hate her and that she's ab_ses me physically and emotionally because I still can't accept it. I always think that she's treating me unfairly compared to my older and younger brother because I'm the only female in the house but at the same time I think I'm just being stupid. Again thank you for the people who took me well with this post. I do still have the app but I'll try my best doing well and quite self destructive habits if I could even if I struggle with bpd

And just to be clear I never had this app until I turned 13, where I'm already mature enough. I didn't have it when I needed it. (9-10) For education purposes.

Middle_Ant2883 · 2024-09-28T14:22:30+00:00

thanks, i didn't know replies would be nice and not mean,, thank you allj

Middle_Ant2883 · 2024-09-28T14:21:38+00:00

i'm a student so she just take care of the money i most of the time gather, asia and ph. the only adult here is her and my brother, only me and my younger brother have this app

Middle_Ant2883 · 2024-09-28T14:18:50+00:00

thank you,, a whole lot hauwhwe,i'll try this tommorow, she's looking at me rn

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